If only life was a fairytale...

2008-03-19T21:33:00.004+08:00

Wow... Its been almost a month since I last posted!

Gosh... My days have been filled with frequent Meetups with the XRers, plus heavy school workload each and everyday...

And aniwaes, updates for the outings are all in the sgbikes.com forum : http://www.singaporebikes.com/forums/showthread.php?t=106813

and

My outing pics are all available at : http://chiquitaescada.multiply.com

I lazy ah wanna update here... maybe once in a while if I've got problems I'l blog about it...

But so far, so good!

Though now I haf guy problems la.. Which I dun wish to talk about..

I wanna be happy for now.. :)

XR Outing on 15 Feb 08

2008-02-21T08:02:00.005+08:00

2008-02-12T15:39:00.000+08:00

Last Sat's outing was a blast!

My friends Dila, Farah, Firman, Farid, ShahZul, Hakim & Binkaz went to Kallang Leisure Park to have some fun playing Bowling @ Kallang Leisure Park. Then after work at 7pm, I joined them and had played some bowling too courtesy of Dila & Farah *thanks larlinks!* Thereby after, we got to see some fellow DRZ riders doing their pop wheelies and stunts in the carpark and also seeing Firman almost semi-wheeling just beside me. Haha! Then we headed to Al-Majlis to have some Sheesha cum Card Game session. Me being a gundu as usual dunno how to play most of the card games la... Taiti la, Police & Thief la, Bluff la... etc... Gundu2 also get to become a slow murderer! Hehehe....

Aniwaes, met a fellow XR200 rider yesterday at Yishun. Apparently he had some problems wif his chain n no.plate... and wanted to change bike. Haiz.... too bad la I bought my bike oready, if not I surely will get an XR200! WooOoHH~! Nvm la jus wait for my KTM400 Motard nxt yr! WoOooHoOO~!!

Here are some pics!

From left: Binkaz, Hakim, ShahZul, Firman, Farid, Dila, Farah, BerZerk & Me!

Top: Firman, Farid, Binkaz & ShahZul's Bikey!
Bottom: Mine, Farah, Dila & Hakim's Bikey!

Wokays got Tamil Assignment to do now! Nanri (Thank You in Tamil)!

2008-02-07T00:16:00.000+08:00

It's Chinese New Year~!! And cheerios to the very, very long weekend! Hurray~!

Aniwaes, I've got a few things to write....
There's a new part-timer at my workplace, Suhaizad.
He looks like Zed's (my ex-bf from Yr 2005) twin brother, only younger by 6 yrs.
Exactly like him sey.... I was quite shocked when I saw him at 1st... Actually I was practically praying that It was not him cuz if it was him, I dunnoe how I'm gonna work there anymore, although Zed's now married. Hehe...

So... since the day Suhaizad a.k.a Zad started werking, I get the feeling that Maya & Hetti keep disturbing me about Zad. I mean... they like to tease me and tease Zad also... I feel so embarrased sey. I mean... I dun have aniting to do with that guy, I dun even flirt with him or have any intimate feelings wif him but I dun realli noe y they wanna tease me until they find "evidence" or any "signs" that I have feelings towards Zad. Apejer~ They said that when Zad's around, I like malu2 wanna tok to him. Of course lah! Cuz they always tease me and tease Zad, of course I also embarrass wanna tok to him. Ntah2 they are the ones who really2 like Zad, and then tease me just to cover up for themselves... Apejer~
I think Zad also malas nak layan their teasing. So if they tease us, we will always like act blur2 malas nak layan. Or just keep quiet. These kinda things...... child's play ah. Zaman 10 tahun yg lalu punye game. We are all working colleagues wad.... in same office sumore... not good to have these kinda teasings especially when they've predicted wrongly. And not good also cuz Zad might have a wrong impression of us Malays.

Oh yeah... Natasha also said... "I think Zad likes you."
I was like... "..............."
I dunno what to say.
"No lah he does not like me."
It's a statement, not an answer to the question.
I dun wanna think bout this situation ah....
Let him like whoever he wanna like lah.....
Why must everyone be so interested in whoever he likes just because he's a good-looking guy?
I really dun undastand.

2008-01-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

Oh Gosh.... There's jus sOoO many things that needs to be updated!
Aniwaes, I'm back in skool & not exactly having the time of my life!
Basically, I like learning new stuffs but I realli dislike the course that I'm taking course I can't relate much to it. I like to learn something associated with design.... maybe graphic design, or fashion design.... aniting but not those industrial design boring kinda stuffs.... After watching the movie "Accepted", I got to agree that restricting oneself to the boundaries of higher education really impedes someones mind from exercising creativity or enjoying doing things that we like. I mean, we have to conform to fixed syllabus and doing boring calculations and measurements whereas sometimes we know that our minds are really not up to it. Why can't we have courses like "Hairstyling 1.01", "Teddy Bear Designing 2.03" or "The Perfect Guide to the Perfect Guy 4.30"?? Hehehe... I bet the minimum bid points for these modules can go as high as 2000! WoOoOHhh~!!

Aniwaes, an update on my health status. My wounds have dried up and started peeling off. I hate the sight of those ugly scars, but I guess I can live with it. Nivea Body Lotion is my everyday must have now.... cuz it really helps to lighten those dark spots! Really! Hahaha... cuz sometimes my hand itchy2 like to scratch mosquito bites until it becomes a dark colored scar, then I use Nivea for a few months and its gone! Hehehe.... Or someone recommended me Franch Oil. Its realli effective too!

Also, an update on pics. Lately, I'm not realli into taking pics unlike when I was 18-21 yrs old. I dun noe why. I used to be a Film Junkie. Everyting must capture my face... but Now.... Maybe cuz I've turned Uglierr?? Hehehehe..... Enjoy the pics... :p

Lemme Intro U to my PinkLadies.... from Left : Oshin, Me, Farah, Deela & Dya...

And this is one of the Scrambler outings..... Wif 6 XR125, 2 XR400 (1 nt in pic) , 1 DRZ and 1 RXZ (Nt in pic) From ECP for dinner to MSQ to lepak...

We made a new fren, Jules riding a Supa Dupa CBR400 wOoHh~! My former dream bike back when I was into sports & road bike.. Now my dream is a MOTARD! Hehehe :p

And.. this pic was taken wif my XR125 Gerls... Farah & Deela @ the Finals of MX Race @ Tuas Track on 13th Jan 08.... Personally, I love the race but I really hated the hot & dry weather! Hahaha.... my Sis was also there wif my Brother-In-Law & their daughter cuz Abg Sham is a rider! Haha.... last time he rides GasGas200. Dunnoe whether he has changed his ride or not.... :)

Stay tuned for further updates! Ti'll then, Happy Riding!!

2008-01-07T13:39:00.000+08:00

These bruises really hurt lyke a B*tch.
Got it juz now @8.30am as I was entering the road from Bukit Batok Nature Reserve filter lane.
Was doing a normal cornering. In a split second, I fell down with my bike. When I looked back at the filter lane, I saw a long trail of oil spill on the road. No wonder.

Lucky all my bones were still intact and there were no cars behind me. But a guy on a TZM almost hit my fallen bike, but luckily he stepped on his brake in time. His name is Zam. Staying around my estate also I recognize his bike cuz I used to walk past that bike everytime I wanna take bus to skool. He helped to pick up my bike and bring it to the road side. Then he tested on my bike. Engine is ok but handlebar senget. He followed me all the way to clinic and waited with me for my appointment. Maybe to ensure that I was alright I guess.

I dunno whether to laugh or cry when I c my bike and my condition. I've got bruises to my knees, upper part of my feet, my left elbow and left palm. My bike's handlebar is slanted to the inner left, the IU's cable has been scraped, the gear lever bent up, my left tail signal lights are not working and the front fender plastic is scraped. Haiz...... and jus now went immediately to Bukit Batok Polyclinic to cleanse my wound and get medications for my bruises. Costs about $21.80. Got MC for 3 days. Doc ask to rest @ home and dun walk so much. Haiz..... apela nasib. Nak kene kuakan duit lagy....

Later going to workshop to check the bar's alignment, bent back the gears and fix back the signal lights. All important components of my bike sey must do a.s.a.p. Lucky engine no problem.

I think that road junction is my bad luc road. The other day, my chain went out of sprocket when doing a right turn, now fell down. That road must be cursed! Hua hua hua..... In future more going through that road for me... But .... Still riding must go on! Tak serik2 gak pakai sandel naik moto tgk ah kan kaki dah luka. Ishk.. :(

2007-12-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

Arlow~!!!

Ive been extremely busy this week furnishing up my bike!

Lucky2 bike cuz all my pay goes to him! :(

So after changing my chain & sprocket, I went to buy new side mirrors $18 bux (mahal!), new signal lights ($20bux for 2 pairs front & back), and headlight $15 thanks to Dyla! Hehehe... everything was fixed last Sunday @ Tampines by our mechanics Firman, Hakim's Bro, Hakim, Farah, Dyla and Misba. I dunno aniting at all about mechanical stuffs! Hahahaha....

My next project is to change my tail light & fender ($20 plus bolts n nuts $8.10) ! N that will be done this wk hopefully... N the basics are all done!

Da next big burn-a-hole-in-my-pocket project would be to:

1) Install Acerbis handguards & metal guards ($120-$140)

2) Install fatbar with the padding... I think mebe Renthal? Or other good brands.. dunnno lah but I know its about $80 for cheap one and $100++ for a good one.

3) Get fullface helmet! The cheapest is about $70! haha... simple.... black with silver mouthpiece. Yum yum lyke transformerss..

4) Goggles to go along! Mebe Pink ones! Cuz i saw this guy with red goggles & black helmet... looks nice and the colour contrast look extreme... I loike~! Mebe SCOTT? THOR? Dunno ah... Costs $45 & above...

So many2 things to buy sey... N I still haven't bought my trailing gears. UwAaaAaAaAa~~~!!!! Anybody care to borrow me their gears? Pretty pleaseee.....?

2007-12-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

My chain & spocket is fixed Yayy~!! So happie :)

Jus now met my Lady Bikers. 3 XR125 & 1 CBR150. We met @ L.A.B then went to look for Farah's red gloves... nak lampu traffic jer. Then we lepak2 for awhile until after ERP, then proceeded to Beach Road for dinner. The food quality has really gone down :( Tak berape sedap... only the famous bone steak is the best! So aniwaes, after that we went to Esplanade to lepakzz and take pix... So here are the pix!

And... somebody bought me a new pair of AlpineStar Gloves *hehe* Yay-ness!!

2007-12-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday my bike chain came off from its spocket when I was doing a right turn. Farhan has actualli warned me that my bike chain was loose.... haha.... but I jus ignored him. So yesterday, I did a right turn into Bukit Batok, then wanna kick to 2nd gear but not enuf power and it went to neutral. Then when I wana kick back up to 2nd gear, the chain went loose. Wahlau~ Lucky stop in time if not @#$%^&* oready. I was in the 1st lane.... so I had to push my bike to the pavement. I had no idea how I was going to pull the chain back into its spocket. Luckily a guy on DRZ was passing by at that time and he helped me to put the chain back. Then he trailed me all the way back home to ensure I was safe. Suweeettt ryte~~? Hehe... His name is Aiddy.

So today I had to change my chain and spocket and it burnt a Hole in my pocket! $70 for the whole thing. Front and back spocket plus the chain everything. Haiz.... too bad lah. I dun noe aniting bout these mechanical parts and the costs. Easy2 kena Conned! I went there around 6 plus and saw another fellow XR red rider. Chey~ But I didn't really recognize him/her. Couldn't c far.

I have to come back again to the workshop tomorrow cuz the mechanic said my bike's spare part very hard to find. Can buy from Boon Siew, but original parts are damn expensive. Haiz.... Hopefully this gets done a.s.a.p cuz I really need to change a few other things like removing the rear mudguard, changing all the sidelights to a smaller one, change the rear light to a smaller one, side mirrors to one small cute one and to change my bike's head to a nicer one. All costs $$$$$$ aaaarrrgghhh~!!!

2007-11-29T17:05:00.000+08:00

An original vintage Polo Ralph Lauren slingback @ $5.

Deal Or NO Deal?

DEAL!!

Who wouldn't resist such a cheap deal eyyyy~? N I got it with the help of a very kind auntie. I shall call her Jade Aunty cuz she wore 1st grade jade. Loaded Aunty. Mouth also Loaded. At 1st, the shop uncle wanted to charge me $20. $20 is still considered cheap. But then, mum was shocked cuz she bought her Esprit Black Handbag @ only $3. Uncle argued with my mum, saying that my bag can reach $1000 cuz it's vintage and in good condition. $1000 wak lu~~

I asked uncle I'll buy it at $5. Uncle said $18. Then mum argued again with him... hehehe. Then the Uncle asked his wife how much she wants to sell it. The Jade Aunty said, "Chinchai-lah, chinchai-lah. $5."

YabadabadoOoOoOoO~!!!

Thank U Jade Aunty!

2007-11-23T14:07:00.000+08:00

I feel so, so damn blardy sick since yesterday. These viruses are becoming much more intelligent and immune to my antibodies. Damn it. Ate 2 panadols every 4 hrs but still tak 'load' gak. I think i got it from Farhan. The symptoms are the same - Continous transparent mucus, transparent phlegm, the feeling that something's stuck in my throat, constant burping..... and the feeling like wanna vomit but actualli I haven't eaten aniting yet. Should stay away from him ley. If not get worse and worse... how?

Oh btw, I went for B'fast @ Subway and then made my way to Watsons to buy some Panadol for flu.... and.... guess wad I saw?

Those ALL-IN-ONE makeup sets!

Hehe.... Like very tempting wanna buy, but when I tink again, I dun even use much makeup nowadays.... so no point of buying. Mebe Maya might be interested. She's been asking bout my makeup palette every now and then.... Hmmm...

And another thing... I'm supposed to teman Farhan to try out his SEA games sepak takraw sports suits and jerseys today. He's got so many free shirts. *ENVY* And he's going to Korat @ Thailand for the SEA games next month. Free trip, got allowance sumore. *DOUBLE ENVY* Maybe I should follow my mum's footsteps and participate in.... SHOOTING event?? Hahaha.... berangan taik ayam. But hey, I've got Marksman before. So..... maybe if I've got the $$$ in the future, who knows? I might be the next GOLD medalist. Chey~!

2007-11-22T13:47:00.000+08:00

Arlow~! Slamat tghari!

Juz came back from Alif's to makan. If U guess Cheeze Prata, u're SOoO wRong! Cuz i was so damn hungry nak mampos, I ate solid food. Rice with StingRay Asam Pedas and Fried egg. Yum yum~ N not forgetting the must-have teh peng. bUuRrPp~!

Ok lah. It's "SHIOK sendiri" time. I can't help but notice that since I've been riding, those mats werking at Alif seem to get friendlier with me. Ade2 je tau nak komen. Every nick and corner that I walk around Alif, there always seem to be sum1 behind me to ask "Dah makan belom?", "Bwk moto hati2 eh..", "Hi..... nama ape?", "Cheese prata satu eh stengah masak...".... n blah blah blah... Hmmm.... adekah aku semakin "HOT"? Oh, tidak! Some of the suppliers also seem much2 more friendlier.

Hmmmm.... it makes me think.... that guys are also materialistic. Do girls like me need a bike or something of a particular interest to the male population in order to attract their attention? I noe of many gerls who go for guys who have their own transport although they r not physically attractive. I USED to be one of them... So now I know how easy it is to "Manipulate" or "Divert" someone's attention to me. This does not mean that I'm an attention seeker. The attention received is a CONSEQUENCE of me owning a bike. Hehe.... kire mcm All-In-One Package ah gituk... Best gak. Nie baru dinamakan "HAMPER"! At least the consequences are enticing! Hehe...

Aniwaes, talking about my bike. Someone asked me to remove my bike's mudguard. I was wondering.... how I'm gonna remove the mudguard without sacrificing my bike's tail light. Ini mcm nak kena beli tail light baru yg lebih kecik. Hmmm.... mebe I'll do it after exams, unless that someone is rajin enuf to come to the void deck n "pasang siap" for me. Bebual, bebual gak. Tapi kalao tk buatkan, buat pe ehk? ZzZzZzZzZzzZZzZ~~~~

2007-11-21T21:24:00.000+08:00

I got my WINNING prize oweady~!

But... it's not exactly a "HAMPER" lah. I've received 3 DIOR items & it's bundled together using a raba-band. HmMmPphH~~

Org adelah expect mcm hamper Xmas ker ade byk2 goodies kat dlm. Berat 2-3 kilo ker. Skali 3 benda kecik jer. Mak ai~~ Hampa sey...

Tak sangka ehk 3 benda nie harga $200. Mcm betol jer nie CLEO. I got:

1 ) DIOR ADDICT Melting Shiny Lipcolor #579
2 ) DIOR CONTOUR Lipliner Pencil with Brush #663
3 ) DIORSNOW SUBLISSIME Whitening Repair Essence

Yg aku tau gunakan cume tu lipstick jer. Yg lain, sila tanye make-up artiste.

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Oh yeah, today I lepak at home to study. Mcm betol je bley blaja. Actualli dah tak tau ape nak blaja lagy. Cuz open book exam Nie pakai application skills. Ishk. Tapi takpe. Aniwaes, jus now lapar sey kat umah, so I rode to West Mall to grab a Subway Meal. Sampai kat basement carpark , I park beside a WR. Then I saw a guy walking towards the carpark. Actuali.... when I enter tat time I noticed him oready. Didn't noe he was riding. So, biase gak... kalao mat2 hensem nie mesti nak check them out - Silently of Course. Takkan nak Eye Dorang mcm mata Goldfish kan.

Hehehe.... so, I action tk tgk, But Curi2 tgk. Haha.... hensem gak mat nie. Dan die seorang aje. Hmm...... ade chance..... Dot dot dot....

I tot die nye moto phantom yg park kat seblah WR tu cuz he put his jacket there. So when I park oready, I automatically walk towards shopping entrance ah.... hahaha.... mcm malu sendiri gituk cuz curi2 pandang die. When I finished "shopping", I went back to carpark.... and the WR was gone. Confirm-lah. WR tu mat tu punye. Haiz....... melepas......

Kenape melepas?..... Pasal tk dpt buat kawan ah. Kalao tk, bley ade memberz yg tinggal Westsyde bwk scrambler. Budak2 Westsyde kebanyakkan bwk Cub atau Ferring. Boring~

Important lesson today: Lain kali kalao Jumpe Mat tu lagy, silalah senyum/tegur/eksyen sesat jalan. Kwa kwa kwa~~

2007-11-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

Guess wad?

I WON $200 worth of CLEO'S DIOR BEAUTY HAMPER (September 07 Issue) !!!!!

SoOoOoO XxXcited Man~!!!

Yay~ Yay~!!!!!!!

Hahaha..... dahlah tady caught in the rain and shivering all the way from Paya Lebar to Bkt Gombak basah kuyup... and I tot I was having a really bad day.

Skali balik teros GD NEWS!!! WoOHHHH~!!!

I'm Lovin' It~ Padapapapa~~~~~~

2007-11-19T22:44:00.000+08:00

It's EXAM MUGGING WEEK!!

Haha... that means absolutely NO WORK, NO JALAN2, NO HARDCORE SPENDING on Junk Food and Blah blah blah.... All Study & No Play makes Arin a BoRiNG person~ Yikes :(

I got some things to update!

1) I almost kena langgar by a stupid ChiB*i CiNA lady driver last Monday. Blardy Hell~! It happened just b4 turning into Raffles CT carpark. I was in the same lane with her, but my bike was on her left hand side. I oready signalled right cuz wanna turn into carpark wad. Then when traffic in front moved, she quickly overtaked me and drove in front. Wahlau Kanas*i! My bike wobble lah. Lucky I stopped in time if not kena X-cident oready.

2) Then @ night, got this couple on Black Fazer. Spotted them 1st at the CThall traffic light. Then when moving off after green light, the Fazer suddenly Kilas me! Chib*i! Malay rider summore! I was so shocked ah cuz he kilas me from the lane on my right, then passed directly infront of me, then moved to the left lane. Like split second! Whoosh~~~ & they were gone! Then... 2nd time he kilas me again @ Park Mall traffic light. I was shocked again! Blardy rider! Farhan was damned angry @ the rider. If the guy wanna lose his life by speeding @ town, go ahead ah~! Let's c if got TP around he 'berani' or not! These type of rider deserve to have their license revoked! Mentang2 ade pompuan jambu duduk tonggek kat belakang then wanna show-off their stupid skills in front of 2b bikes. Go challenge R6 riders or SRAD 600 riders lah! StOopid~!

3) Another incident 2 days ago. Blardy Canadian Pizza Cina rider blasted his highbeam directly at my side mirror! I was blinded for awhile. Mentang2 die delivery nak cepat bey nak main2 blast beam per. Mcm ah bley dpt tip beratus2 kalao antar cepat. But*h! Cina2 nie sume memang buta! Especially Guy riders! Harap jer ade dua kepala buat per kalao tak gunakan otak! Bodoh peh manusia~

4) K ah.... skrg danak kene cool down. I learnt a very important lesson ah actually from all these : DEFENSIVE RIDING. Chey~ Mcm betol jer. Hehe :p So skrg, gua tak akan kasi muke pat cina2 hamlau atau rider2 melayu yg step gangster kat road. Pi Jalan-dah~~~ Tak nampak per Org baru P-PLATE. Manusia2 tak guna. Otak letak kat perot, perot kat bontot, bontot kat kepala. Bodoh~

2007-11-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

Farhan is off to Penang from 4 - 11 Nov.... *Sobs Sobs*...

Now got nobody to layan my craziness for the whole of this week except my colleagues lah... Hehe... They are such a funny bunch of people and although most of the time they are such lamers, lame lame pon bley buat org ketawa terbahak2!

I've got my 1st day of menstrual cramps today and when I got home at 9.30pm, I immediately dozed off to sleep. Pity him cuz he waited for almost an hour for my phone call cuz after he gave me a missed call from Penang to ask me to call him back, I dozed off to sleep! Hahaha... kesian kene tunggu ehk.

Aniwaes. end of the year is near. I can already here the Upcoming Sales Bells ringing! Yayyy~~!! Time to save up $$$ to go for end-of-the-year sales!! 1st stop would be Taka's GUESS cuz they always feature crazy discounts (up to 70& OFF) for their clothes! *Gue tk sabar dong*

Btw, this wk's gonna be a LoOoOONngg & Busy wk for me cuz many projects and assignments due plus a TEST cumin' up next Tues! EEeEeppPs~! gDLUCK To me & To U~ Heh :p

Oh Btw, I met up wif Dyla at Tampines last Thurs. I lost my way @ Ikea, but managed to find Tampines Central in 10 mins! Haha... achievement sey. Here's our baby bikey together... DiL[A]riN..

Erk. Mine not FIERCE yet. Hehe... but Soon. Maybe more "SWEET" then Fierce lah. Like real ONIE. Wait & See k~ Daaaa~

2007-10-25T12:37:00.001+08:00

Ok. Forget wad i have wrote in da previous post.

Mcm emo tk bertempat gituk. Like Dyla said "Sayang~ Yg sudah tu sudah~" Hehe....

He belongs to someone else now, and he's happie. Im happie too wif my life especially wif my baby. My baby brings me anywhere I wanna go. He's sleek, black and gets hot whenever I ride on him. *GrInZz*

Someone said... that I'm kedekut. Heeee... mak ayam, mak ayam... Gue kedekut Koko Krunch jer! Sedap siol! Nak gi beli ah~ Dah ah makan Coco Pops sorang2 tk ingat org lain. :p

Then yesterday, I discovered someone like to eat raw meat. *Nyum nyum* Some are red, some are brown, some are white....... Hmsss...... Its cold, but gets warm inside the mouth.... SlUurrRRpPPP~~~ Yes! It's sushi! Got salmon, BBQ Eel and Meshed crabmeat with Mayo! Sedappppppppp~! And the culprit? Si Hetti ah nie... bedal Sushi. Kalao bley, die nak beli a whole slice of salmon and eat it at one sitting. Mcm paham~ *hehe*

Aniwaes, also got another someone said I scored all A's during my A levels. Who said??? Hahaha... biar keputusanku tetap menjady rahsia.... Kwa kwa kwa...

Oklah.. byk bebual byk bohong... And my topic sume bersepah2 takde link langsung.. Actualli I wanna relieve some of the burden that I'm going through ryte now. I got a few things due next week:

1) 1st draft of dissertation (eeepss!!)

2) Professional Practice Business Plan

3) 1st draft of Japanese project

Org ingat aku tak bz! Padahal aku bz! Bz fikirkan benda yg belom terbuat nie! Ishhkkk *sob sob*

K ah... going for project meeting now. Daaa~~~

2007-10-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

Suatu ketika dahulu, kite pernah bersama.... bercinta & saling menyayangi....

Dalam dunia aku, hanya ada engkau seorang....

Kemana2 saje, kite sentiase bersame... Berjalan berpimpin tangan...

Tapi sygnya, tiada jodoh diantara kite...

Dengan sekali lafaz, engkau dimilikki wanita lain...

Sedih? Memang aku sentiase sedih... Mengenangkan sejarah kita suatu masa dahulu...

Cemburu? Memang aku cemburu. Aku menyayangi kau sepenuh hatiku. Aku tahu engkau juga menyayangiku. Aku tahu walaupon kau dimilikki org lain, tapi kau masih menyayangiku. Dan ucapan dan kate2 kau tady meyakinkanku bahawa selama ini naluri hatiku memang betul.

Sygku Razee.... walaupon kau telah beristeri dan memilikki 2 cahaya mata... Aku tetap masih menyayangi kau. Aku tahu kau pon begitu. Kau yg mengatakan begitu. Ya Allah... aku tidak mahu merosakkan rumahtangganya.... tapi aku menyayanginya... Tiada org lain yg tahu menilai kasih syg antara aku dan Razee, melainkan KAU.

Tolonglah Razee..... pergi jauh dari hati aku. Tolong Pls. I can't help feeling jealous and envious.

I need to erase you away. I need to erase this jealousy.....

If only he can replace you...

2007-10-19T22:34:00.002+08:00

I changed my seat cover jus now @ JB! Cost me about 20 Sing Dolars... kwa kwa kwa... save $$! At da shop beside lab, costs $30 Sing bux! Haha... same pattern also... N i top up full tank onie $7.50! WeEEeeeeee~!!!!

Before...

After...

HARI RAYA 2007

2007-10-19T07:19:00.000+08:00

It's been one week of Rayer!! But I only did one day of rounding2 collection on last Sunday! Hehe *sob sob* not much collection money this yr cuz some of my relatives say I big oready.. Where got big?? I'm a lil' girl in her own lil' world living wif her lil' family, her one lil' whitey bunnie and one lil' black bikey... Kwa kwa kwa... Aniwaes, her are some of the sungguh tak lawa dan sungguh tak meriah picsss... This yr tak happening ah... Nasib baik I bought onli one baju rayerr.. heee :)

My Bro wif My Sweet Momma... Apasal Ibu Frowning nie??? Tak bagus tau nanti byk line2 kat muke dah tak lawa plak... kalao tak lawa, baik jady kelawar kan. Ehk. Hehe...

And this is ..... ehem ehem.... Yours truly wif her "Sepasang Kurung Biru" yg sungguh nampak mcm guni... Errrmmm... mine the hairband eh sory ehkk hari windy rambot terbang2... nanti kalao terbang2 suey plak ehk kene muke orang... kwa kwa...

Dan skrg kite bersama.... Oh Abangku yg hensem hahaha.... he looks like my dad during his younger days... tapi more to the fairer side ah... my dad gelap... heeee...

And *ehem* Nie lah minah "vogue" during rayer 2006. Sungguh tak lawarrrrr jugeeee...

Compared to Rayer 2007.... Juge tiada bezaaa... Hehe... Cume tis yr... Blue blue... Mcm feeling Bluees gituk kan...

And.. this is wif my niece, Shereen Qistina..... who loves cars and all my dolls. Erk. I mean my stufffed toys... like my $1.99 Ikea snake, my 3 ELMOs, my 4 Winnie da Poohs, my 2 Hello Kitties.... and blah blah blah...

Bersalam-salaman~~, Bermaaf-maafan~~ ... Di hari yg berbahagia ini.....

This is Our Red Shining......... Uh Hyundai Avante jek... It will be MINE when I get my car license.... hahahaha.... Jgn marah ahh.... :)

Dan sekian ity sajer yg gue dpt paparkan pade Hari Raye yg berbahagia ini....
Kepada semua Kwn2ku yg hot, sexy and cool, Andai tersalah kate atau tersilap bahasa... Harap Maafkanlah Saye yerrr.... yelah kdg2 sayer nie bebual terlepas-lepas... nak tangkap balik die dah lari jauh masok telinga org lain dan terus menghilang... Ishkk... Mcm SuarMan.

Akhir kate... I love u ALL my beautifule friends!

2007-10-13T04:57:00.000+08:00

Here are some pics of my bikey.... I haven't named it yet..

Aniwaes, Slamat Hari Rayer to all my Muslim friends out there! Hehe...

2007-10-12T08:19:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a really tiring day for me...

8AM - Go to LTA Sin Ming to meet Steven for ownership transfer for my bike... Then he send me to Bishan MRT..

10AM - Go back home to ride my bike to Bukit Batok Town Council with Amri... to apply for Season Parking.. yayyy no need to use coupon~~

11.30AM - Go to ICA at Lavender to make new IC... haiz... burn another $100... for one small pink card... Otw wanna go there seramz cuz got so many vehicles... and Amri kept reminding me not to ride only on one lane... iyerrr pakcik gue faham...

1230PM - Went to Auntie shop to look at stickers and to buy the plastic tag to put my season parking slip... Then customize my own sticker with my name! Hehehe... but quite ex lah $5. Nak ketok org jerrrrrrrr...

1.30PM - Went to Cheese Prata Shop @ Kent Ridge to makan..... OooOppPps Sorrie tak puaseee!! Hehe...

2PM - Went to skool for tutorial!! Supposed to be until 4pm but ended at 3pm... so I told Farhan that I'll meet him at his blok.............. at Admiralty! Haha... 1st time ride sorang2 dari NUS pegy admiralty... I never wear my jacket and the weather was realli cold after the rain... sejuk gilerrr seyyy... hahaha tapi I told myself.. tahan... tahan.... lagy brape kilometer jerrrr... hehe...

3.35PM - Reached his blok... Waited for him for awhileeeee... heeee lambat betol die nie.. Then he reached at 4pm then we sit sit and talk talk and went to Wdls Mart to buy sponge and Autosol to wash and polish our bikey...

5PM- Start washinggg!! Haha... the tirednesss... fuuyyoohhh bley tahaaaaaannn... punye lah penat menyangkung nak cuci motor... ok ok now I appreciate those guys who really polish their engines sampai berkilat mcm cermin! Heee...

7PM - Farhan went to Bukeeee... he brought for me goreng pisang from his house! Yum yummm~~

8PM - Bertolak to Geylang .. I neeeded a new pair of shoes and to buy Dempo Snow for my colleagues... I bought PINK colour KAPPA shoes! On SALE! hehee $29.90 onieeee... Dah penat jalan2, we went to buy keropok lekor la... honey chicken wings lah... burger lah and chomp chomp by the pavement... haha mcm pemintak sedekahhhh...

10PM - Bertolak to go HOME! Yesterdays traffic was bloodyhell heavy! Haha dahlah baru dpt moto... blom reti nak selit2... skali I selit I langgar 2 car's side mirrorr until they horn me... Hahahahahhaha bodoh betol... wen I langgar the 1st mirror, otak dah bengang dah takley focus.. skali in split second, terlanggar another cermin... hahaha whooppps paiseyyyyy ley... nasib baik I never lost balance kalao takkkk hmmmsssssss......

10.40PM - Home Sweet Homeeeeee!!!

Gue penatt giler smlm... Then tady mlm ade one of my old friends ajak kua makan... dahlah org baru balik, then penat... die ajak kua riding ngan kua makan plak... Hiisshhh... Kalao sape2 nak ajak kua makan, sila tolong turun West Side k... daerah Bukitssss (Bkt Panjang, Bkt Batok, Bkt Gombak, Bkt Timah) sampai Jurong East jerr... gue malas nak jalan jauh2 k...

Ok nak siap nie nak pegy skola... naik moto!! Weeeee~~~~~

2007-10-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

Baby Bikey is OUT!! Hehe...

10-10-07... A very memorable day for me cuz I finally got to ride on my baby XR!

Hehe... seram sejuk tady bwk motor kat expressway... all the way kat lane 3 jer hehe... but it was rather exciting! Heee... lata I'm going to LTA @ Sin Ming to complete the transfer of ownership and register the bike under my name.. cuz my IC lost so must use my passport ley...

Then after that, go back home and ride on my bike to Town Council to apply for season parking... Then go to skool for tutorial then at 4pm... go to Woodlands workshop to ask Farhan's friend to wash and polish my bike... For FREE~~ Kwa kwa...

Ok thats all I wanna update... cuz I've to wake up early to make my way to LTA. I dun noe where the hell it is... hopefully I'll find my way there..

Okie Dokie... Daaaaa~~~

2007-10-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

Yes!!!

Finally my 1st lavish expenditure since I was born!!

4.7k in total for my bikey! Hahaha.... I noe it's EX... but wat to do... gue sudah minatkan...

Aniwaes, went down to Soon Hin jus now to place downpayment of 1.5k for my bike. Actualli after settling insurance everything, i can ride the bike oredy... But u c... my IC's been missing since last yr... so I ask whether can use passport for transfer agreement with LTA... and they say that they have to accompany me to go LTA directly to settle the transfer agreement using my passport cuz they wanna c my face and verify that it's me... Hua hua...

So... terpaksalah thursday have to go LTA in the morning.. nasib baik it's at Pasir Panjang area near my skool... so after that can go straight for tutorial..

At 1st, I thought LTA was at UBI, but then I realized that Traffic Police was the one situated at UBI... Apedahh... nasib baik check Street Directory..

Oklah.. so much for all the excitement... the real one will come next wk!

Cuz I'm getting my bike next wk! After rayer! WeeeEE~~!!!

2007-10-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

I dun noe y so many people like to criticize me...

About my behaviour, my character, what i wear, how I present myself.... etc.

I mean... who r they to judge me? I'm No celebrity or some Famous Artistes. I dun need your attention or suggestions. I like being ME. It's who I am and How I want it to be.

If u dun like what u c, keep those criticisms to yourself.

Cuz you're AIN'T that great either.

2007-09-29T22:21:00.000+08:00

Sedar tak sedar... dah sebulan since I last blogged ehk! Heeee... sori ler pada pembace2 setia saye... ade sikit bz lerr..

So... continuing from the last update since I got my license kan....
I've been searching high and low for my bikey.... Mane die ehk suke main sembunyi2 plak...
The bikey that I wanna buy is actually Honda XR125L... A semi-offroad scrambler that starts electrically (easy for me la... takyah asik kickstart buat waste energy jer kan...) and with easier maintenance compared to other scramblers. Moto nie gua sudah fall in love sama die sejak gua ternampak 2 moto mcm gini kat luar kedai hairdresser @ Bkt Gombak Central seblah tu kedai apek lebam. Dah lama gak dorang bwk nie moto... dua2 pon P-plate.. Hari2 pass by kedai dorang gua gerammmmmmmm jer tgk moto2 nie... Ishkk! I wan that bike also! Heeee.... So I pegylah cari moto nie.... Dah pegy survey2 kat Bukit Merah, Albert Moto, A.S.Phoon, Toh Guan, Mah Motor.... sume takde 2nd hand.... mostly on front display is either Spark, X1 or Wave... Boring! So one day... I went to Yishun nye kedai2 motor... and saw 2nd hand XR125!!!! Haha.... ade 2 lagy! One is FY plate, the other is FBA plate... So of course kiter amik yg FBA plate kan sebab baru setahun moto tu.... My plan is to use the bike, then after one yr take Class 2A and buy Supa-Dupa4! Heeeeee jady UP sikit kan...

After one week... I went back to the shop with Farhan... He tried on the bike... Chey org tu jejak sey naik moto kite.... He also starting to like the bike oready I think ah... Actuali he anti-scrambler.... he dun like dirt bikes... But sejak I loike scrams and introducing him to scrams... he's growing to like it... haha sampai pegy library pon bace Magazine Dirtbikes... Kwang kwang kwang.... And he wants to be my subrider! Heeeee..... I said... tgk ah dulu.... Kalao jady subrider, bulan2 kene contribute half ok... N he agreed.

So the next day, I gave him $200 to deposit for the bike. To book the bike and I told Uncle Steven the owner.... "Uncle... few wks after Raya I will pay my downpayment and take the bike ok?" He said.... ok he reserve for me. Haha... ah nie ah tgh keje keras to earn the remaining $400 for my bike... cuz now I have $900 in hand and I've already deposit $200, so left $400 to make it $1500 for downpayment. Many people say my downpayment alot... Cuz they usually pay like $600-$1000 for that. For me... the more the better lah... so that in future just pay less lor... Easy concept mah... Thats y lah this is the reason y I've not been updating for one month... Cuz wanna earn money for my bikey.

Aniwaes... will updates soon about my bikey.. Coz alot of my frens have been asking me out RIDING! Omigoddddd...~~ Haha... fellow XR125L GFs also been asking me out riding.... Ok sistas... wait ok... after raya... then we go ride n ride n ride ok... hehe jgn kelam kabot... If I want someting, I'll definitely strive for it even if it takes a longer time...

To end this finally updated blog... I wanna wish all my fellow Muslim friends Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Berpuase.... Jgn lupe kalao nak derma, kocek saye sentiase terbuke.. Hehe :p Daaaaaaa~~~~~

2007-09-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

I've got my BIKE LICENSE already!!!

Haha I jus passed my TP jus now with only 6 demerit points! Haha... beat Farhan and most of my guy friends to that. Amcam.... ade tokoh jady safety rider tak??

In the weeks to come I'll be busy surveying for bikes... Hmmmm moto ape nak beli ehkk?

SooOoO excited!

2007-08-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

Each day without fail, he'll sms "I always love you".
And each day without fail, I would be waiting anxiously for this msg to pop up on my hp screen.
Sometimes without thinking, my head would turn and look towards any bike that passed that resembles his. And each time, I was hoping that it would be HIS bike.

A few days ago, I was downloading some songs from my pc to my new hp and came across some old private videos with him. Our 1st date, 2nd date, ....... 8th date, outside cathay, outside my werkplace..... Gosh I miss those lovely moments together with him... To be loved by him and to have him pay attention to me and my needs. But that was all at the beginning. Since mid of last yr, everything started to change. His focus shifted from me to his job as a Sales Executive and now an Operation Executive for Ban Hock Hin. I stood in the shadows of his career-driven life, once in a while hoping that he would shine a light my way. We met each other only for a few hours once in 2 weeks, if I'm lucky. If not, then once in 3 or 4 weeks. Words can't comprehend or describe how abandoned I felt - Having a BF, but not actually believing that I have one. He's like an ant walking across a white wall; his presence totally insignificant - In Malay "Ada atau takda sama aje". Yet, I still can't bring myself to stop caring for him.

In these 3 weeks without him, indeed, life still remains the same as before, only slightly better with the presence of another male counterpart. Truth is though, I still haven't completely gotten over Mike yet. A big part of me says that I'm being too selfish towards him. That I broke up with him just because I don't get the attention that I needed so much. A slightly smaller part fights back saying that we've not established the kind of connection like me n F did. A tinier part says: "GUILTY! GUILTY! GUILTY!"... *Sigh*....

Did he put some black magic on me or sumting?

2007-08-26T23:26:00.000+08:00

Yesssaaahhh!!!

I bought a new hp! :p :p

To replace my beloved k750i...

Now can take more pics wif the 3.2mp lens!

Yayyy~!!!

2007-08-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

A week has passed since the day we went our separate ways but the memories we made still lingers on around my mind every single day. I know that it's hard for you to accept the fact that we're no longer together. I'm so sorry for hurting you this way... but I truly believe that one day you'll realize what I did was right. I can't love you anymore... I can't even bring myself to think how we'd look like in the future if we were still together. Awak... I cherish the times that we've spent together, but for me.... all those times that we've spent trying to get to know each other have made me realize even more that we're incompatible being together. Everything that characterizes you lies on a higher plane of maturity compared to mine. I'm young, reckless and still very much in love and haunted by memories of my past with my 1st love who's happily leading a married life with 2 kids. I want to experience those moments again. Those childish antics, unexpected giggles and those shy but loving glances that could only be interpreted by 2 people very much in love with each other. If only you were him, you would understand how I feel....

Awak... I didn't meant for us to end this way. For as long as I've been with you, I never meant for us to break up because of a third party. However, I can't deny the fact that there IS someone else. He's there for me whenever I needed someone for company. He did things for me unexpectedly. I didn't want to fall for him.... but I did. Slowly, I became much closer to him than I was with you. And then I realize.... it's true that when you're with someone else other than your own BF, is when you'll realize what you're missing out.

I know you'll always love me.... that you want me back....

But Awak... I'm so sorry for hurting you....

I'm in a dilemma...

2007-08-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

SINGLE now.

2007-08-06T00:53:00.000+08:00

It's been 2 wks since I last blogged. Many things has been happening to me lately. Let's start with the happy ones 1st.... My 22nd Birthday. Syah, Ayu & Maya asked me out for dinner at Empire Cafe @ Raffles Hotel the night before my birthday, on 19th July. The dresscode for the evening was green & purple, which was my 2 most favourite colours. We had steamboat which includes fried omellete, a bowl of rice and chendol or ice kachang to down everything wif. The durian chendol was really nice, no regrets choosing it. After dinner, we went around Raffles Hotel snapping our photos for memories sake.... the pics are at Ayu's website :

http://ezanandayu.multiply.com/photos/album/76

The next day, F & me went to Suntec to eat @ Olio Dome restaurant. We had the seafood platter, choc truffle and cheesecake. The choc truffle was realli2 small and not does not taste as good as RC hotel's choc truffle cake. Aniwaes, here are the pics :

After dinner, F had to go off to his part-time job as a Bouncer @ NAB. He looks nice in a black suit hehe :p I went up to Equinox for a while and chatted wif Farisha. She asked me whether me and F are together already and I just laughed at her question. I think she's been wanting to noe since the day she saw us queueing for donuts. Mcm belangkas gitu kan... everywhere we go, we're always together. While talking wif Farisha, Mutto the AM asked me to sit in for a glass of champagne on the house since its my bdae. It was hard to resist, but I did for F's sake. Also, I dun wanna sit alone jus holding on to a glass of champagne... mcm pathetic gitu kan... sorang2.

The next day (21st july), I met F again @ Central Library to borrow some comics. I've been into Batgirl, Batman, JSA, Spiderman, Fantastic 4 and Daredevil since the holidays started. Mcm best gitu looking at the colourful and carefully drawn comic strips. It sorts of liven up my spirits everyday when I read comics, like I've been brought into my own world of superheroes. F is some sort of a sleeper. Dtg library jer cari spot nak tido.. tk abez2.. After getting the comics I wanted, we headed to Pastamania @ Bugis and then back to the hotel again cuz he had to work @ NAB again. Then, a dreadful thing happened.. I lost my hp inside the toilet :( I was so sad, I had no mood to go home. So I accompanied him at work ti'll about 11.30pm... then I went home.

The next day, I went to work w/o a hp. It feels so wierd. I was so down the whole day cuz I've lost everyone's number. Imagine not even having ur best friend's number or BF's num at hand. Mcm kehilangan arah gitu... Wana kol my house also need to search for public phones, which are extremely hard to find nowadays... If there was even a public phone, you would see Banglas hovering over those phones for nearly an hour before they kiss goodbyes to their beloved. Feeling so remorse, I decided to collect my replacement sim card that evening. F fetched me from werk and headed to Starhub Shop @ P.S. The service was prompt and fast, which I realli liked. Then we were so hungry... we went to eat @ Bendemeer Road.

The next day was working day.... ti'll the whole of last week....ZZzZzzZz...

Something happened on Thursday (26 July). We took OFF day together and headed down to the beach. It was drizzling..... but its a good thing that we brought a tent. So after setting up the tent for an hour, the Park Ranger came and asked for our permit. Of course, we didn't have one. Now so leceh... have to get a permit to set up tent. Good thing the park ranger didn't chase us away. We spent the whole day there... swimming and suntanning... then at night we had dinner @ Bar & Billiards room @ Raffles Hotel. The food was pretty OK but I think it would be more worth it if there were more varieties of food. There was one part I tricked him into eating the oyster that was on my plate. I love oysters but when I see that oyster moving, I don't dare to eat it. Mcm geli gitu. So, I gave it to him and he happily chewed on the live oysters. Hehehe... I couldn't stop laughing! When he finally finished eating 3 oysters, I told him that those were actualli still alive when u ate them. He stared at me and I laughed.... :p Hehehe... very funnie ah his reaction... he quickly sipped our Shirley Temple drink cuz I think he felt geli also. Yuckkkssss! After dinner, he sent me home....

On Sunday 29th July, Dad brought my family and I to Ayam Penyet Ria Restaurant @ Joo Chiat. I had smashed beef. The food was not realli nice. Actuali, Dad should've just gone to those usual spots we go for dinner cuz their food is much2 nicer....

30th July... Monday... was my brother's 18th birthday. Didn't do aniting for him.. Actualli I wanted to buy for him shirts at River Island.. but he said he wanted shoes. Then me and F went to Little India to eat Roti Naan. After a rather sumptous meal, we headed to Mustafa Centre. The plan was to buy hair oil but we ended up almost 3 hours looking at stuff sold there. There's just sOoOOo many things to see! And we only completed the 1st floor! He promised to go there again :)

31st July, F had sepak takraw tournament at Clarke Quay area CC. His team won 2-0. Then after that we headed to JB to fill up his bike's tank and ate late night supper at a roadside mamak shop. The teh tarik was quite nice :)

Thursday, 2nd Aug we took OFF again and headed to watch The Simpsons @ Jurong East. The movie was realli stoopid. I didn't like it as much as some people did. In fact, the jokes were not realli hilarious. Waste money onli. Then we headed to East Coast again. I dunno y but I love heading to the beach so much. Its like when I'm inside the waters, I feel so free. My problems will drown together with each incoming wave... and washes all my problems ashore. I shouldn't elaborate more...

Aniwaes, thats all the happenings I have in my life....

I'll update more about Sat (4th August) later cuz I'm not in the right frame of ming right now. Gdnyte.

2007-07-22T01:51:00.000+08:00

Attention Dear Friends!!

I just LOST my hp :( Sob sob...

Please, please, please forward ur hp numbers to my email:

u0404900@nus.edu.sg

Thanks SooOo MUCH!!

2007-07-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

Updates for this week! Like... finally! Hehe... Many happenings as usual lah... But I'll just summarize cuz gonna get some sleep, werking @ 9am tomoro.

Monday - Entertained myself with watching videos over and over again. Watched CNTM on YouTube & some Buffy the Vampire Slayer past episodes on TVlinks.com. Then, met him @ Woodlands to return some comic books. Was pissed off with him for arriving an hour late, so I just headed home. No chances, babe.

Tuesday - Had to drag myself to school to complete the Autocad drawing and finally completed my attachment!! Yayyyy-ness!! Then Farhan a.k.a Kenshi, picked me up from school and we went to NUH to visit his grandad. I kinda miss his company cuz it's been 2 months since the last time I met him and he brought for me my fav Peach Tart! Nasib baik ingat my fav food.. Yelah... org tu kan bz ngan org lain kan kan kan tak ingat kite lagy kan.... Aniwaes after that we headed to Central Library to borrow my comics, then to Bugis Topman and he bought himself a men's cardigan which cost $89 bux! I could buy 10 t-shirts with that money sey... Then after that got this girl from Tony & Guy academy asking me whether I wanna have a free haircut next next wk, and I agreed. Just hafta fix the appointment date, that's all.

Then its time for dinner! He treated me to an advance birthday treat @ Al-Majlis. I had my fav Mixed Sausages & he had Beef Wrap! Yummmmiiieeeeeeee~~~~! And we had a long talk there. Talk and relax and chill and talk and talk. Hehe.... Talk about alot of things that concerns the heart :) I'm glad we had that long conversation and Thank You for the Birthday treat. Then after that we headed for some Pool Action @ Bukit Batok. He thrashed me 6-0! Takpe2.... one day u'll get thrashed back. Then we headed to this secret carpark to learn to drive his car. Haha.... gerek dpt drive kreta! I can imagine myself driving a car in the future :) Amacam... are u still scared of my drifting style.. hmmm? We should do that again someday and I'll show u some of my skills.... but dun close ur eyes with ur hands again when I drift k? Jgn takot.. trust me I can drive. Hehehe.... It was a really good experience and I can see that he missed my company too. I'm sorry to hear about ur relationship... There's alot of nice nice fishies in the sea... Grab a net and catch one nice fishie ok? :)

Wednesday - He apologized to me and we went to JB for lunch and movie. We watched Transformers (2nd time for me) and the new Harry Potter. He slept halfway through Harry Potter.. Idiot sey.. Hehe he say so much talking scenes and less action so overall it's quite boring. I think its because he didn't watch the previous episodes thats why he don't understand what's actually going on. Aniwaes, I've been going to JB like almost every week! Bankrupt sey... but glad got financial backup. Hehehe :p

Thursday - We packed our stuffs and headed to the Beach - again! Haha tak abis2 asik nak berendam jer... we were in the sea for like 3 hours! I had hypothermia in the water.. the water's warm but the air's cold. When we're done swimming and after showering, I had a very nasty flu. Glad that there's Chippy's Battered Fish to warm my internal system :)

Friday - Back to werk @ Restaurant Reservations! First day was hectic sey I had like a large stack of notes to update myself with. Had a bit of a panic attack but after lunch, everything turned out just fine. At about 4pm, I had a surprise msg from an old friend, Imran. Haven't met him for the past 2 yrs. He wanted to ask me out for advance dinner treat. We went to Seoul Garden @ Taka to fill our stomachs up. It's been a long time since I went there... "cook" for myself. Hehe..... by the time dinner ended, I was convinced that I'm 3 months pregnant when I looked at my bulging stomach! Terok betol... sumbat all those food in my perot but the Tom Yam chicken was really tempting. After dinner, he sent me home and I had a chance to try out a few rounds on his Gilera. Senang nak bwk bukak throttle jer all the way. At first it seems abit heavy but when I rode it, mcm ringan gitu and very easy to handle. Just trying out different bikes to see which one suits me the most so I can make a good decision later :)

Saturday - Werk again until 7pm and had lunch with him. I wanted to get Peach Tart from Delifrance but was dissapointed to see that the outlet's no longer there at City Hall :( So I bought 2 bananas from the fruit stall, a packet of Tom Yam Seaweed and Fox sweets... my fav. He picked me up after werk & headed to Little India for some Roti Naan cuz I miss eating that So, sooo much! Then we went to our usual lepak place to spend some quality time together :)

Sunday a.k.a Today - Werk again... but guess what? I earned myself Dinner for 2 at Bar & Billiard Room!!! And its worth like $64++ x 2pax = $128++! Haha... gerek kan? And it's all becoz I managed to get 23pax to dine in for BBR's Sunday Brunch! I had to actualli get a min. of 15 pax to dine in, in order to get the free dinner; which is part of an initiative by the restaurant manager to get us reservation agents to upsell their outlet. Looks like I've got an advance birthday present for myself! :)

Aniwaes... that's all the updates I've got for this week. There'll be more updates next week cuz it's my birthday week! 20th July peeps remember that! Sayonara~~~~

2007-07-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

Finally... he landed home safely at 11.25pm last Sat :)

2007-07-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

Yes!! 2 More days & finally he'll be back! :) :)

I've missed him too much oready... Arrghhh rinddu bangettt gueee!!

Btw, today team Singapore got into the Finals... hope he didn't fall on his but while flipping...

Hehe... He always remind me of someone very2 dear to me...

That someone that I can NO longer have... That someone I've given my heart & soul to... (But of course my heart & soul has been restored now. Hehe :p )

U noe wad... apart from all the happiness that I feel right now, I noe that one day I'l feel deeply hurt by my own actions. I know both of them will be hurt, especially BF. I noe he'll be dissapointed in me. He has high hopes for our future, but I always doubt that he'll be able to support my future financially or mentally. He wants US to get MARRIED 2 or 3 yrs after I graduate, which is in maybe... 4 yrs time? Me getting married at 26 yrs old eh. Haha... klakar kaper? But 26 is a nice digit ley... its my class index no. during Sec 4 days.

Aniwaes... sometimes eh I feel like me n BF mcm tak serasi gitu ah. Cara pemikiran kite pon lain. I dun realli get along well wif him. But wif the other guy... haha... jgn ckp ah... dah mcm belangkas... takley berpisah skejap pon mesti tercari2... and we can tok about aniting under the sun and stil joke about it. Thats wat I like ah about him. BF's got many good points also. He's a career person, which is good ah. But, soal hati dan perasaan.... die tak Champion.

Haiz... U noe Im really having a very hard time here. When u go out wif other guys then u noe wats realli missing in ur current relationship. For me...its the chemistry, companionship and closeness. The 3 Cs ah kirekan... Nak lepaskan mcm syg... Dah almost one and a half yrs we're together. Furthermore, he realli wants us to get married. Mcm serba salah pulak aku. Nak lepaskan... takot nanti die accuse kite main2kan perasaan die plak. Nie part ade sikit susah ah.

U noe... belom sempat masalah nie selesai... another one more guy came into the picture. Hairul, my ex and also my good friend. We had something going on 5 yrs ago when i was in JC 1ST yr and only 17 yrs old. Our friendship was somewhat like on and off kind. Die suke ilang2 mcm chipsmore. If he knows I'm attached, he'll run away from my life. But then wen Im single, he'll pop back again into my life to try to woo me back again. And yesterday, he confessed his never-ending love for me.... He wants to take care of me. If not, once he passed his TP next wk, he's gonna go dirt riding on his new KTM2 to Malaysia. Giler ah nie budak. Kasi ultimatums plak. Haiz......

My life.... is always full of surprises.

Let's see what's in store for tomoro k? Ryte now... I wanna drown in Didicazli's Dambaan Cinta...

2007-07-02T10:46:00.000+08:00

This feelings... its all so wierd..

Why AM I feeling so alone & remorse without his prescence?

I shouldn't feel this way. I'm strong & independant.

I shouldn't be too emotional... Right?

But it's so hard...

Pls come back soon...

2007-06-29T01:34:00.000+08:00

I'll be all lonely next week cuz someone's going to Thailand for competition :(

I'll miss that person SoOOO much though..

Tanpa dia disisi, terasa seperti kehilangan sesuatu...

Ntahlah very hard to say... Sometimes I feel like going all out for him...

But then wen I realized that my actions would hurt someone else, I hold back alot...

Its so difficult :(

Johor Wedding

2007-06-18T23:52:00.001+08:00

Last Saturday, my family & I headed to Royal Johor Country Club to attend my Cousin's Son's Wedding Lunch. The weather was quite bad & it almost took us 2 hours to get out of the causeway jam. Actualli, I had to cancel my date to Sentosa with Nasha cuz my parents forced me to attend this wedding. I dunno whether its because the place is quite grand or becuz its a 'family' thing but wateva it is, I didn't realli enjoyed the wedding. I think its not too well-planned cuz most of the guests came late, and the cake came late too.

Aniwaes, speaking about weddings....
BF suddenly talked to me about his wedding plans over the phone last nyte..
Wanna noe y...?
Cuz he gathered together with his whole family on Father's Day...
And his eldest sister asked him, when he wans to get married..
And he told them that he's waiting for me to finish skool...
And thennnn... thennnn....
He called me lah.
Talk about wanna get married lah...
To me lah...
Who else ryte?
Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......
Sian ley...

How ah?
I dun wanna plan for my wedding ryte after i graduate...
I need $$$$$$$$.
Lots of it.
To buy lots of my girlie goodies and go backpacking around Europe and save up for my car and house and.. and everything expensive lah...
But.. see lah BF has to pop out and blab about getting married.
Haiz...
Ey someone pls help me :(
Help meeeeeeeeee~~!!

For now, lemme bore your eyes & souls viewing these picss!!

The wedding cake!

And this is my eldest Auntie wif my Youngest Auntie... I love them to bits cuz they took care of me during my childhood days when my mum had to attend work : )

The big, big golf field...

Our bride and groom...

Senyummmm.... jangan tk senyum....

And this is my eldest Uncle... Still lookin' strong...

My Maklong, who helped my family alot financially during my childhood days.. I owe so much to her for my education...

Who else if not my lovely Mummiieeeee :) I love her so muchh

Walking down the aisle... walk walk but dun drop k hehe...

This is my cousin-in-law with her 1st born, Nur Elia..

The famous oldies again... my papa & mama :)

Wif the groom's sis, Anjasmara... nice unique name ryte? Mebe if I've a baby gerl, I'll give her a unique name... Named after a Javanese princess mebe?

And this is the groom's Daddy... he's very2 handsome when he's young you know.. but now da boncit lah hehe :)

My Auntie!! I love her! She actuali used to run around the house naked in front of me and her children!! OOoOOPppss!!

I was actualli contemplating whether my bro's sleeping or forking his food... Hmmm...

The wedding planner... Mr Planner, next tyme pls plan properly ok...

Me with my Bro, Mamad. My relatives said we looked like a couple... realli ah? Hehehe...

Fooling around at the golfer's cabby! Mamad dunno how to start the engine.. hehe dumb dumb!

Mamad, that's not cute ok.

OK.... we cute cake oreadyy...
Wish them a Happy Married life!!

Next, its my turnnnn arrrrrr!!!!

Family Reunion

2007-06-10T11:52:00.000+08:00

My dad's been warded in Alexandra Hospital since last Wednesday due to lack of oxygen in his blood, which leads to shortness of breath. It means that each time he does any physical activity such as walking a short distance, he would tend to pant and gulp for air to breath. All of this was due to his heavy smoking. His lungs are all spots of black. I think a large section of his lungs are no longer functioning. However, the surprising thing is that Doc says that he doesn't have lung cancer. I mean.... all that tar buildup in his lungs... doesn't it one way or another leads to lung cancer? Hmmm... hopefully Doc gives him a long MC so that he could rest @ home. And hopefully he'll stop smoking after this.

Aniwaes, with Dad being warded in AH, it gave us a chance to do a family reunion! All my brothers and sisters came, together with their children and my stepmom.

My Bro, Abg Wan..

Wif my sister-in-law, Kak Wati...

And my sister, Kak Yati...

Wif my nephews & niece.. Ryan Haikal, Mateen & Amira..

Mateen is SOoOoO cute! Rambot nak step beachboy jer... gerammmm

Wif Kak Aidah... she's 3 months pregnant wif her 2nd child

Kak Aidah's 1st child... Shereen Qistina... dah besar panjang budak nih

This is my younger sis Hazimah... we are born 4 months apart...

Wif all my sisters...

Wif my younger bro, Mamad a.k.a Popot... cuz he farts alot! Haha..

Ahhh nie die budak muke blur... Hadi, my youngest brother...

I took this pic to remind of the happy times we spent as a family,,, I wish we could do it again once dad gets better...

Stay tuned for further updates! :p

Department DInner

2007-06-08T10:23:00.000+08:00

Restaurants reservations had our Department dinner @ PMC last nyte & it was fun,fun,fun! Haha.. for those who came, u noe wat I mean lah kan... camwhoring like there's no tomoro. Let the pics do the talking : )

2007-06-07T14:50:00.001+08:00

Helo peeps! Dah lama tak update blog sey... I've been extremely bz with my attachment... Hari2 keje aku kire pokok kat Nepal Park. Our task is to do a Greenery Mapping of Nepal Park. Mark out the trees according to their positions on a map, then haf to measure and record the diameter of the canopy and to identify the various species of trees. Leceh kan...... ? Furthermore, the weather's been very hot and humid, so everyday I'll sweat on site. Dah berpeluh, lap kasi kering then berpeluh balik.. waduhhhh peh lah azab... Tu takpe, hari2 aku jady pembunuh. Pembunuh nyamok! Hehehe... kuang asam nye nyamok... dah dpt isap darahku yg manis nie takpe, die meninggalkan kesan plak tuh. My body now itches and I've grown a very unusual rash. I think some other insect bit me until I had to go polyclinic for medications. I've experienced many side effects, including turning 3 shades darker than my original shade. Dah itam berlegam! Teringat balik tat time nak kua umah, I only put on Sunblock on my face without makeup... My mum ckp mcm Org Minyak! Hahahahha... kuang asam nye Ibu! Takpe... takpe... Hari nie, hari Ibu, besok hari Jumaat. Heh. :p

Aniwaes, last weekend I went to Sentosa wif Darling's friends. Mandi laut, main captain's ball, soccer, main monkey... quite fun but I thought it was not too well-planned. Bey si boncit nie nak step pakai all-black plak. First2 pakai baju putih, pastu bile die tersedar perot die nampak besar, tukar plak colour hitam. Hahaha... nampak jugaklah mane bley sembunyi bende2 mcm nie.... Here are the pixies that I managed to take ; )

Actualli, besides all these fun times, there are certain things that's been bothering my mind. After the sentosa outing, I overnyte wif BF. We met his friends @ midnyte to play pool, then he got news from his werkplace that 2 of his workers were stabbed. So he, being a person yg "Jiwa Members", went to Bukit Merah to investigate the matter. And he left me alone wif his friends whom I just go to know. Berani plak dekni. I feel abit sad ah cuz he left me just like that. I thought he would bring me along, but he said he was in a hurry and told me to go back to his house after eating @ the Kedai Kopi. I stayed awake for him to come back and he reached home only @ 4am. I was sooo sleepy.

The next day, I packed my stuff and we went out around 12 noon cuz he was supposed to send me home. Dok kedai kopi jap cuz he had to go back to his house to change into his "Design" shirt cuz later going Escort for his friends wedding. I waited for him for almost an hour. Eh eh... dekni kalahkan aku plak.... nak tukar baju pon takkan take such a long time kan. But when he returned, he was still in his polo-t, he never changed cuz his "Design"-T got stains. I was abit pissed off lah. Actuali, my mum had called me up and told me to go home straightaway. She didn't know that I overnyte wif BF. If she knows, abez ah pinggan mangkok sume bley terbang. Tunggu BF salin baju, it was already 1pm +++. Then he said, tak sempat nak send me home cuz budak2 die sume dah tunggu, so I had to follow him to the wedding - in my jeans and T. Malu sey... tapi buat muke mcm kulit gajah ajelah... ape nak buatkan...

After the wedding, it was already 2pm +++. He was supposed to send me home a.s.a.p cuz my parents were waiting for me cuz they had to go to TTSH to visit my uncle. We refuelled his bike @ Shell and for 30 mins, he was on the phone wif his fren. Then left me there staring into space. Mcm budak bodoh plak die buat aku nie. I was really pissed off lah.. but naseb baik tahap kesabaran aku nie blom kat puncak lagy. By the time he finished his conversation, it was close to 3pm. Then he made a "brilliant" suggestion. He had to go to werk @ 5pm @ Clementi, so he asked me to relax 2 his house until 4pm, then otw to werk, he'll send me home. Ewah2... pandainye budak nie... org dah lambat nak balik rumah, die sengaja lambat2kan lagy plak... I told him my parents have been waiting for me to reach home for the past 3 hours, I hope he understands my situation. Tibe2 jer die mengamok. He said that I'm like "Kerbau dicucuk hidung", always following whatever my parents say and dunno how to think for my own sake. I told him back that if it's so hard for him to send me home, then just send me to Eunos MRT, I can go home by myself. Betol aper... dah dari kol 12 aku tunggu ko antar aku balik... and I've been tolerating wif ur nonsense... this is what u say to me. After that die mengamok ah... I looked @ the ground and said that he doesn't understand my situation, how my parents are. Then he forced me on the bike and sent me home. Bwk moto mcm org giler... main2 selit2 sana sini... betol sak dekni mcm nak kene smack jer ngan aku. When he dropped me off, he didn't even kissed me goodbye or said aniting, he just blast off. He left me standing @ the carpark all alone. Fcuk.

And for the past 3 days, we didn't contact each other. Until he msged me yesterday, "U don't even care whether I'm ok or not." I replied, "Becuz of certain sacrifices i make to spend time wif u, my mum did not talk to me for 3 days. N nw, my dad's in hospital admitted again. N u have da cheek to say dat i dun care for u wen u were the one who walked away from me without even looking back. Fikir sendiri ah. I malas nak ckp lagy."

He replied," Ur parents is so demanding!"

Fcuk lah! Yes, all parents are demanding wad. They wan the best for their child, cume kite jer tak faham kemahuan mereka.

Then I replied,"U r da one who's being demanding. U wan me to b lyke other gerls tapi hakikatnye, memang I tak boley sebab ada halangan dari pihak lain. U yg tak faham. U yg nak semua org ikot rentak u. If u dun understand my situation, then 4get about us."

He haven't replied until now. Biarkanlah... biar die fikir sendiri.

I've just got too many things on my mind.

About the overnyte thingy, my parents already suspected that I went out wif him. My mum asked me whether I'm serious wif him, whether I'm still wif him. I just kept quiet. Then she told me that if I'm serious, my dad would go to his house this week to meet his parents. He wants to talk to his parents, and is ready to marry me to him. Kire mcm nak lepas tangan ah. After that, he doesn't want to tanggung all my expenses, even my skool expenses. All of that will be paid by BF. I hate to be in this situation. He wants to force me to marry him cuz he doesn't wan to tanggung all the sins that I've done outside of marriage. I think. And also, he has already told me previously that he doesn't restu my relationship wif BF becuz my dad and his mum sepupu. We are already related.

What should I do????

Furthermore, right now.... I'm already feeling the uncertainty of my feelings towards BF. I feel as if... I no longer need him. It's like his presence doesn't matter anymore. I dunno lah. Actualli, the way out to all my problems are simple. Easy. End my relationship wif BF. Jalannye sudah terang. But to end this relationship, is not that simple. Ingat senang ke mcm budak2 matair skejap bey mintak break. I have to think deep..... choose the best way out.... to make everyone happy. It's not easy. Emotions will crack.

How ah?

2007-05-26T23:21:00.000+08:00

Where's my Darling now?

I miss him.

Haiz....

Liz's Engagement

2007-05-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

Congrats to Liz *STARS* who got engaged to Ghaz today!!

I'm so happy for her... I pray that her engagement would last ti'll the day both of them get married!

She looks so beautiful and elegant

Gifts for her fiance

Jeng jeng jeng.... tak pernah dibuat org tunang sendiri sarungkan cincin....

Brape karet agaknye ehk?

Finally engaged!

*Bile agaknye aku nak tunang ehk? HmmmzZZZZ....*

Syah's Bdae

2007-05-24T01:02:00.001+08:00

We celebrated Syah's 21st Bdae @ East Coast last Sunday!

Janji kol 10.30... at last jumpe kol 11.30.. betol peh janji Melayu Beruang2 nie...

Dah jumpe, Maya blindfolded Syah and Kak Ayu drove us to ECP.

And knowing Kak Ayu, drive pon bley sesat... parking senget... haha senget pon jadilah eh janji kreta dpt masok sudah... Pastu sebelum naik hump bukan nak brake dulu... dah kesian Syah mabok naik kreta... Tapi power lah bwk kreta ade gaya Minah2 racer :p

Upon reaching the beach, we opened Syah's blindfold. Surprise! Tapi dah tak surprise lagy pasal nie minah dah tau kite kat East Coast pasal ade budak naik basikal sume....

Then... kite cari spot paling gerek punye...
Bentang tikar besar2 kat pavement...
Dunno who's idea. Think it's Chip Beruang.

Sume dah settle, apelagy... kite makan ahhhhhhhh Homemade Mee Goreng ok...
Sedap dok.
Lain kali rajin2 masak lagy eh. Feveret aku Mee Wantan.

So Lepas makan2 we go Swimming!
Swimming2, suntan, scrub2, fishing....

ok... time balikkk yayyy...
Pastu I went out datinggg... weee~~ :p

2007-05-21T18:20:00.000+08:00

After 6 weeks of not dating, I finally met up wif Larling! Yay! :p We went to eat wif his fren @ Funan, then go East Coast Lepak, play pool.... he won all the games : ( cuz everytime I try to put in the black ball, the white ball goes in as well.. haiyah...

Aniwaes here are the pixies...

Gue rindu banget ngan nie moto... lama tak ride atas die hehe :p

Mcm adik & abang. Ryte? Cuz he's much2 older than me...

Oklah.. gue mau cabotz dulu... daaaaaa :p

2007-05-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

Love life?
Still not doing good. Never seen him for the past 2 weeks. He's always BZ. Tak romantic sungguh... hmmmph!

Social Life?
Improving. Been going out almost everyday. Hehe :p

Personal Life?
Been thinking alot about personal achievements, goals and finding ways to motivate myself to improve all the other aspects of my life.

Domestic Life?
Haiyah... this one no need to say. Everyday's the same. Mummy will nag n nag n nag.

Student life?
Dissertation is the top priority. And then there's attachment. Just did an estimated 10km site visit @ One North just now. Damn sian leh.

2007-05-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

" U noe wad.. Its been a year or more since we reali went out on a date. I noe ure always bz n all tat but as ur GF, I do expect much more than juz ____. Ive been giving so many hints 4 u to ask me out bt all i get r empty promises. Sad to say this, wen u're beside me, i dun wan to let u go away or go hm, but wen u're far i realize tat i dun reali nid u 2 b wif me at all.."

"I will spend the tym with u dear more often k. I love u k syg."

"I dun even noe if i can believe tat. Aniwaes, ____ does have her own life. N she has a guy who wld do aniting 4 her bt they r jus frens. Her constant company is wats been keeping me happy n alive. Sumtymes tat guy even ask me where's my BF. N its very sad tat each time he asks, da onli ans i cld give is tat u're bz working. Org yg tk rapat ngan I sendiri can tel that I'm very lonely."

"Syg i know im at fault. I know im bz with myself. I know where i stand. Im sori syg im useless im myself 4 there is no tym 4 u. I knew ur frenz sure comparing this to me.Nvmlah since u do not want to talk to me. I just want to say that I love u so much syg. N I always do."

"I like u as a person bt mebe its time 4 u to let me go cuz u simply hav no time for our relationship, wat more 4 ureself."

"No I love u dear. N I always do."

"Da most saddest ting is tat u noe Im lonely bt u dun wan to do aniting about it. Then wat for u jady matair i? Mite as well we jus go our separate ways so u can continue working and wif ur budak2 n i can continue my social life back."

"No I want u by my side the rest of my life.."

Hehe *cair*..
Degil jugak BF nie *grinz*

The Perfect Gentleman?

2007-04-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

I remembered about a year ago, me & my "so-called" friend had a dispute about finding "The Perfect Man". At that point of time, she wasn't in a relationship yet. I was still at the early stages of my relationship wif BF. The dispute wasn't really a heated argument. I guess at some point during the course of our decent conversation, it turned into a hot debate about her "perfect gentleman" VS my "not-so-perfect" former and current BFs/BF.

She HAD been in a relationship only once, as I recall. And it lasted only 3 months. And throughout the whole relationship, her BF had been telling lies all along, and played around wif her heart. The situation climaxed when one day her BF told her that he was admitted into Changi Hospital suffering from a certain sickness, and she rushed all the way down to the hospital only to find that the situation wasn't actually true. How Stoopid. And from then on, she couldn't trust guys anymore.

I, on the other hand... have been dating around and been in short term relationships since I broke up wif my 1st love in 2001. And every time I was in a new r/s, I'd show their pictures to this "so-called" friend. The comments are ALWAYS negative. So Expected of her. She always had someting to criticize about the persons I was currently dating at that time. She wasn't supportive of my decisions and wasn't keen on the idea of achieving happiness by being in that simple yet short relationship at all. Sometimes, it felt as if she doesn't respect me as a person and as her friend. Most of the time, I just wanted to give her a tight slap and wake her up from her constant criticizing and negative feedbacks about me and my relationships.

Aniwaes, the debate centred around her idea of the "perfect gentleman". I wouldn't describe the characteristics lah. Got so many. But just hang around the idea of "perfect" and u'll know what I mean. It means the total opposite of jerks, motherfathers, liars and guys whom u've once loved so much but end up hurting u so much that the pain was so unbearable.

I kept emphasizing to her that there is NO such person as the "perfect gentleman". But she kept opposing my opinion. She's so stubborn!

She believes that one day she'll meet her dream guy, the guy who knows what to say at any given situation, someone good, decent with lots of money, someone responsible and kind and "layak" to be with her. Hahaha... but my dear friend.... that is all only a DREAM. I dun believe in all that. Our mothers read to us the same Fairytales that was read to them when they were young. Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast and Sleeping Beauty all met with their Prince Charming and lived HAPPILY EVER AFTER. But life's ain't a fairytale. If only life WAS a fairytale... all of us would live HAPPILY EVER AFTER wif our Prince Charming - the one and the only perfect guy for us. Cuz the truth is my dear friend, Prince Charming doesn't exist in reality.

The guys that I have been wif or I am wif now... they may not be the "Perfect Gentleman" like u always dreamed of, but they were the perfect solution to fill up an empty soul. The presence of a man in my life doesn't necessarily have to complete me, but just their company and our shared experiences, is good enough for me. Some of them may be money swindlers, using my hard-earned cash at any given opportunity, some just wanna have fun, some gave a thousand empty promises... but one thing's for sure, I've never come across the "perfect gentleman". Is there such a man? R u Sure u can find your DREAM GUY?

Even IF there's a DREAM GUY, I'm sure he's not totally perfect. There may be thousands of flaws surrounding him. You may never know. I watched The Oprah Winfrey Show. This lady lead a luxurious life filled with trips to France, Greece, Maldives, had a private jet, a private yacht and had a 5-storey townhouse. Her husband was a doctor and she'd been married to him for 3 yrs. He was not only the most intelligent guy she'd ever been wif.. but he was her best friend. He said all the perfect words she wanted to hear at the right time. To me, he was such a manipulative idiot. On her birthday, he left her mysteriously and never came back but a check wif the banking account stated that his account was still up and running and that he was still alive. He left her wif 6 million dollars in debt. 6 MILLION DOLLARS! No word from him at all. So pls ladies... there is NO such person as the "perfect gentleman" or "dream guy" or "perfect man" whatsoever. Dun let guys take advantage of our vulnerability as weak women. Some of us may be weeping, crying and getting emotional over breakups with BFs whom we thought were perfect for us when at the current moment, he may sipping champagne with another women and laughing at our stoopidity and how easily we believe his promises and fall into his trap when all he ever wanted was a bit of fun. It's not easy to think about this, but Reality Bites. And it bites deep and hard. If he doesn't take us seriously, chances are... we're just another stepping stone for him.

Thinking about BF... he may not be perfect one, he's not rich, doesn't always say the right words, and we seldom spend time wif each other. He may not be Prince Charming, but he does listens to whatever I say, and takes it seriously. To be wif him may not be the best option in life, but its the best option at this moment. I cherish him too much :)

Cherished Neoprint Moments...

2007-04-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

Its exam period!!! Yayyy~~! Hahahha... can't wait for this misery to end on 4th May! Had my 1st paper on Construction Cost at freaking 9am in the mawning jus now and guess what... I didn't do one question! And its worth 25 marks! But I didn't regret cuz I suck at theory questions. I completed all the calculations.. We'll just hope that Prof Ling closes one eye eyyy..

In the meantime, look what I've discovered.... old neoprints! Nothing much, but each neoprint have a story of their own. Here's the 1st neoprint that I ever took with my best friend Yana and the "so-called" (friend?) Yasmin in 2001 @ Heeren's Annex. We took this after collecting our free Peanut Chocs @ the carpark outside Somerset MRT courtesy of LIME Magazine, if I'm not wrong.. hehe.. The most suckiest part of the day is when Mom calls me @ 7pm on my hp and forced me to go home @ that point of time. Haiz... c lah 16 yrs old also have curfew @ 7pm. Sucks ryte. But the most memorable thing was that it was the 1st tyme we went to Town together (although it was a short 3 hour thingy) and all of use we wearing skirts! Haha.. I still remember those were the times when the ketat nak mampos denim skirt with killer slits high up the thighs were in trend. Ahhh dari situ uh I was "branded" the Minah by my "so-called" (friend?). Haha.. pakai skirt pendek, sexy sikit jer dah kena "branded" minah... apelah naseb aku...

And this pic... was taken wif Ira, my "so-called" best friend and good pal during Mendaki Tuition days. We shared alot of problems together, even studied the big O's together @ Bukit Gombak stadium (hehe.. aku tau... kental kan..). But too bad lah kan.. cuz of her scandal with my 1st love.. LIFE WAS NEVER THE SAME AGAIN. I can't get back with him, and she.... just ran away from everything. Haiz...

Ahhh and this pic with Fizah... nie lah zaman GEMILANG Minah2 aku... when I was 17 yrs old and 1st year in Pioneer JC. See the ugly thin eyebrows? And if u see closely... I looked abit tanned cuz I played RUGBY when I was in JC! haha... tak percayekan...

Aniwaes, Fizah was also my good friend during the PERKASA CAMP days where I met my ex Shafiee and made friends with Ryhan and Fahrin. But I lost contact with all of them now :( Sob Sob... And during the camping days, I was the oldest there... so all the kiddies looked up to me lah... yelah dah Minah... pastu nak step "Kakak-kakak" plak kan... But what to do... during dinner mesti aku yg masak nasi, aku yg masak sardine... bagy kiddies2 tu sume makan... Thats the best camp ever for me... :)

And this pic... is wif my closest Cuzen ever... we grew up with each other for the 1st 10 yrs of my life... and then my family moved to Bkt Batok... this pic was taken after our trip to Jemputan @ JB. It was the 1st time I followed my Maklong to JB with her...

And this is us again... and I looked so DAMN tanned! Haha... rugby of course! And still in 2002! This pic was taken after our trip to Police Academy in June for their Police Carnival... I miss this gerl man...

And this pic... was taken in 2003 after my A levels! Hehe... dah kembali putih dan berseri mcm Anak Angsa. This was taken in Bugis after our picnic @ Changi Beach. I didn't noe who suggested the place, but we only spent like an hour @ Changi Beach cuz shortly after we arrived, the rain came down heavily! Basah kuyup sume! Good thing I brought 2 shirts.. hehe... but nevertheless... it was memorable cuz I went through those times with THEM : )

Our reunion again... but this one I realli can't remember where.. I jus put it in to remind Yana that she looked like an Auntie wif her glasses on! hAHAHa... naseb baik ko dah JAMBU skrg wif ur contact lenses! Kalao tak mesti maseh kene Kutok ngan aku :p (Jgn marah ahhhh....)

And this one ... PROM NYTE 2003! So ugly ryte... everyone else wore beautiful gowns and all of us MALAYS from Class A06 and A08 put on our baju kebayas and baju kurungs! When I thought back about it... typical Melayu! Haha... dah qualified bley jady Makcik2 & Datin terkemuka kat S'pore nie.... asal ade function jer pakai Baju Melayu.. But the funniest thing was.... we wore this... and me & Fizah walked ALLLL the way to Far East Plaza with our high heels and BAJU kebaya... just to take this neoprint! And alllllll of the people were STARING at us! Hehehehe... slenger sakk... now thought about it... We were a MAJOR EMBARRASSMENT!

Yay! Back to me n Yana's pic.... this was in 2004... my 1st yr in NUS day when I often meet up wif Yana & Yasmin after my skool... and always hangout @ Jurong Point! See Yana without ur specs, u look tons prettier!

And this was also the time when I wanna step mcm minah JEPON2 uh kirekan pi skolah pon pakai kimono blouse... cheyyy mcm betol jer... :p

Remember the sexy girl Miki, Nasha? These were still in 2004 when I 1st met up wif Nasha & Miki! Very pretty & Jambu ladies.. whom I got to know from Anakmelayu.com. Its amazing how so many of my frens came from that website and I STILL keep in touch with them ti'll today..

And then during the 3 month holidays in 2005, I met up with Eqa. Asik bebual pat telepon, tapi tak pernah jumpe... The 1st time, we met @ Bugis ate @ Tong Seng. Haha asal jumpe jer mesti nak makan takde keje lain... After that, we proceeded to take these neoprints and had a meet up wif Saiful. Haha.. I still remember that time I had a crush on Saiful (which was a stoopid crush lah)... but then he told my other friends that he didn't like me... haha... kecoh sak tu... sampai ade scandal with someone... I remembered... the gerls me, Eqa, Nooreen and Nasha keep talking about that during our conferencing session... gosip tak abez2...

And then in July 2006, after I came back from holiday @ Penang, I met up wif Eqa and brought her to have a view of the City from Equinox @ the top of Swissotel...

And I also remembered that we bought alot of hairbands! Haha... aku nye purple ngan hijau.. kao nye... putih eh? Hahah kao nye colour aku tak ingat sak... Aniwaes, looking @ this pic, reminds me so much of my beloved long, long Rapunzel hair.. BF told me jus now that he didn't want me to cut my hair again... Haiz... baru ingat nak potong slope... Buruk sgt ker rambot aku skrg? Haha.. aniwaes.. sape nak pi dgr ckp dier kan... nanti dah dpt lesen moto.. ah siap ah... mesti potong slope nyer jady senang nak pakai helmet. Hehe...

This pic also reminded me of the time when Eqa was really @ a happy stage of her life cuz she was losing weight. Actuali to be honest, she realli looked jambu @ that time. Totally different. And I'm glad that she was happy wif her body : ) Look @ the neoprints and u can see how different she looked from the year before...

And finally.... the neoprint with our little get together @ Cathay CIneleisure during term break... Everyone wore long skirt except for me... juz jeans and a tank top... and an UGLY necklace. I was late for the meet-up cuz.. I think I was not feeling well or I woke up late.. tak ingat sgt.. but the thing that I remembered was.... we watched a BORING movie! And I was shivering in the cold movie theatre... about halfway asleep! Nasib baik contact lens tak dry out.

Looking @ these neoprints, I realized how much I've grown up to be the person that I am now.. and that all those lovely memories are still captured in my mind until today. It makes me feel good that I have great friends around me all the time. It awakens me from the sinking feeling I have each time I lost a friend or lose contact with them. It makes me cherish the ones around me more that I ever have. And I hope that my friends will stay true to me, cuz I noe that I will. I miss you guys.

And even after all thats said....

I STILL MISS MY RAPUNZEL HAIR!

Haha.

Manicure fun!

2007-04-21T19:33:00.000+08:00

Exams are finally starting on Monday. Yay! 2 weeks of pure hell... and then attachment starts for 2 whole months!

Have been doing not-too-intensive revision for the past 3 weeks. But seriously, only started started officially studying the last 3 days. Biaselahkan... slack mau lebih, asalkan otak jgn pecah. Lagypon... exam is open book and mostly my papers are application. Jady wanna study so much for what ryte? Its not like you can copy what have been taught into the exam scripts.

So, been exercising my creativity again.. this time would be personal manicure sessions! Not very professional though.. hehe...

This colour is my favourite!

I was so sick of studying, I ripped open a packet of M&M's courtesy of my friend... and ate piece by piece, page by page.... sebab tu cepat bace...

Not forgetting my great companion.... Brownie junior... he/she(Still dunno the gender yet) is only 4 wks old. So cute and cuddly... geram! He/She even shared my M&M's! Hehe :p Kalao tk sakit perot pon memang naseb uh...

And here are more designs...

I'll be back with more... once exams end of course!

And also for the first time in many months.... I'm slouching at home for the weekends! Unbelievable!

2007-04-17T08:49:00.000+08:00

It's been 24 hrs since TP.

I STILL can't get over it though, but I'm trying to.

Syah introduced me to someone new... haha... ade2 je kao eh...

Make sure u dun talk bad about me to him if not I'll smack u up n down! :p

After that I'll feed u wif Salmon Sashimi! Haha... cuz u r the big grizzly bear!

*yum yum*

Speaking of Sashimi, I miss going out for Buffet Dinner!

There's this International Buffet Dinner @ The Greenhouse @ Ritz Carlton.

Should be quite pricey but saw the menu online and I thought the food was quite nice!

Amacam Syah... aku pass TP kao blanje aku makan sane eh?

Hehehehe :p *Luv u!*

2007-04-16T16:11:00.000+08:00

I've got sad news.

I failed my TP by 10 points.

All due to that stoopid slope.

Should have never changed to Gear 2. Should've just stayed in Gear 1.

Haiz....

But... at least I know the procedures for TP oready.

Next TP is in one month's time. Wish me luck!

But hey.... think and think again.... even if I passed TP, I haven't got the money to buy a bike.

It's either XR2, Gilera, CBR150 or KR.

XR2's still the feveret!

But BF wants me to buy a 'wave' type bike. Very cheap and easy to maintain.

Yah ryte... Like I'm gonna listen to whatever he says.

Moto die besar nak mampos beli mahal2, nak maintain pon mahal, die nak suro org beli yg kecik2 yg murah2 plak... Pi jalandah...

2007-04-13T10:54:00.000+08:00

Haiz.... I mishh my very own BoNCiTTtt so very much...

RelationSHITS & Commitment

2007-04-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

Some people have been doubting my commitment towards BF. Commitment? What's the true meaning of that word in this world? For me, I don't believe in commitments (BF-ship wise). It just makes life a whole lot complicated and complex. It makes us GFs emotional and whiny when BF doesn't wana tok to us when he's abit bz. It makes us call him all the time to check out his current doings. It makes us insecure and invincible to think that he'll look at other girls when he's standing right next to us. It makes us tear, cry and throw tantrums when he refuses to meet us often. Then we suspect a whole lot of crazy ideas about him when all the time, he's actually at work. And u noe why we suspect stoopid things? Cuz we expect him to be committed and have eyes for us and ONLY us. If he expects us to be committed only to him and if he even looks away at another girl, we consider it as unfair. After that argue and quarrel sampai nak stengah mampos about this stoopid commitment/kesetiaan thingy. At the end of the day, it makes u wonder. Can I remain as a really, truly die-hard-fan of commitments? And by this, it means.... no going out with other guys (even friends or close friends of childhood frens whatsoever) except your BF, no msging other guys except ur BF, no looking or admiring other guys except ur BF, no scandals, no going out with ur girlfriends unless BF approves of it. For me.... merepek uh nie sume. Puas hati suro BF masokkan kite dlm fridge pastu lock, buang kunci dlm laut.

BF once said to me,"Saye takyah bilang awak pon awak tau yg saya sentiasa menyayangi awak." It's true. With him, I dun feel insecure. I don't need to constantly call him up to check up his whereabouts cuz I know he'll either be working his ass off, at home lepak watch DVDs, sleep or at kedai kopi lepak-ing with his frens. It's the same vice versa. He noes that I love him. Kesetiaan nie sume takyah nak dipertikaikan slalu. It comes from within your heart. Even though I got many guy friends, and I go out with them, it doesn't mean that I'm putting my BF aside. BF knows how I talk to guy frens cuz he's seen the way I talk to his guy frens, which surprisingly, he lets me sit down and talk with them all even though he's not there. So I dun think this guy fren issue is a big problem. But, I admit, he does gets jealous when I mentioned a certain somebody's name.. which I shall not disclose of. Hehe... jealous tandanye syg, betol tak?

Actually right, I'm out of the topic oready... tok about commitment... but dah melalut sampai topic lain plak.

Aniwaes, the actual thing I wanna highlight today is about relationships lah. Ntah knape tiba2 topic jiwang plak yg aku nak blog about.

The thing is that I observe that some people.. or let's say girls... very the kesian lah. No freedom to go out without BF's permission lah, no freedom to talk to whoever they want, senang ckp no freedom to socialize. I mean... nie sume mcm zaman aku 16 tahun nye time... budak2nye fikiran... terlalu ghairah sgt nak matair, bile matair step i love u u love me, pastu bile pompuan atau laki salah sikit je nak mintak break. Merepek kan. Kalao dah takde freedom sume... nak step setia or committed ke whatever shitz lah kan... I love u u love me... kalao u tak kasi I main, kite break. The relationship has no meaning already sey. Atao lagy best... "Sape budak laki yg admire u nie? Dah tau u lawa, sexy sume... abih nak sibok2 kacau u. Ape nama die? I nak cari die ngan budak2 I kite rembat die, kasi mampos." Mak kao... nie lagy sudah terang uh mcm MatRep nye pikiran. Step nak rembat kaperrrr? Polis dtg jer sume cabottzzz.... Hahaha...

Actualli i tok so much lah. Alot of things on my mind.
To be contiNUDE.....

2007-04-09T10:55:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... sape lagy cute? Yg nie ker.......

Yg nie......?

Hehehhe.... dua2 dah tak cute! Esp yg atas nie dah boncittttttttt... :p

2007-04-09T09:24:00.000+08:00

Guess where we went last Saturday?

Clarke Quay & Tekka!

We planned to go Liang Court by foot from CThall ... and it took us almost 2 hrs to reach there! Cuz we got lost! Poor2 beruangs.... yelah skolah tak ajar kite navigation... dah tercari2 mane tempat nie.. rupe2 nye seblah Clarke Quay jer..

Syah almost gave up on going to Tekka cuz we were so damn tired after walking for SoOoO long.. but after we looked around at the digicam sales @ Liang Court, we were abit refreshed. Pastu smangat dah dtg balik! So after about 15 mins of browsing through cammies, we went to search for Clarke Quay mrt. And we got lost again!

AH... nie part pon dah almost give up lagy... tapi akhirnya... dpt gak cari tu mrt. Main sembunyi2 plak die. Masok mrt mcm biase uh we spotted a few cute guys *yum yum*. Tapi yg paling cute... si botak pakai baju brown... Hensem to the maximum! :p

At last.. sampai gak Tekka... kite mkn Roti Naan! Syah kate tk sedap mcm yg time first2 kite dtg... but for me... tetap sedap sebab da lapar! Kla byk plak bebual... nie die pics2 yg kite sempat amik...

Game websites

2007-04-06T16:47:00.000+08:00

Free mobile phone downloads for your beautiful hps!

www.mobile9.com

www.zedge.net

www.mobango.com

www.getjars.com

I'll update more webbies lata k..

Benda Nie Style uh...

2007-04-03T01:12:00.001+08:00

2007-04-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

Hey wattsssupppp everybody???

Hehe....

Watsup Isap ah... Abeh tak tau :p

For those who feel offended... sory uh...

its the Beruang's private joke. Wic is not so private now.

K straight to da point now....

I passed my evaluation!!!!!!!!!!

*Clap*Clap*Clap*Clap*Clap*

*Arin bows down to her audience*

Thankeyuk~~ Thankeyuk~~ :p

Hehehehehe...

TP is in... 2 weeks time!

Exam is in... 3 weeks time!

So... everything must practise hard2 to perfect every single move...

Haiz... Im really, extremely ecstatic of my achievement!

Betol tau.... until now I still feel so wierd how come I can pass...

But nvm... everyone pls pray that I'll pass my TP the 1st time round k?

Loves it! ~

We made up!

2007-04-02T16:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday....

"You don't love me anymore?"

Today....

"Syg. I love u k n i always do."

And I still haven't replied his smses...

BUT....

He called me just now! Hehe....

He didn't wanna quarrel anymore....

Yippie... I won! I won!

*Arin jumps up and down wif her pom-poms*

*PEACE*

Love u lah Boncit!

2007-04-02T15:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm... this is interesting....

My marriage age is..
You know when your birthday is, but how
old should you really be getting
married? (just put an x next to the
things that apply to you)

[x] I know how to make a pot of
coffee.
[ x] I keep track of dates using a
calender.
[ ] I own more than one credit card.
[ ] I know how to change the oil in a
car.
[x] I know how to do my own laundry.
[ ] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself
[ ] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] I balance my checkbook.
[ ] My parents have better things to
say
than my friends.
Total: 4

[ ] show up for school/college/work
every day early.
[ x] I always carry a pen in my
pocket/purse.
[ ] I've never gotten a detention.
[ ] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[ x] I have never gotten completely
trashed.
[] I have forgotten my own birthday at
least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x] I know what 'credibility' means
without looking it up.
[ x] I drink coffee at least once a
week.
Total: 6

[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in another
language.
[x] When I say I'm going to do
something
I do it.
[] My parents trust me.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh sometimes without
being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school/college.
[ x] I remember to feed my pets.
Total: 7

[x] I can spell 'experience' without
looking it up
[ ] I work out on a regular basis.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know me by
name.
[ x] My favorite kind of food is take
out.
[x] I have gained weight since
middle/high school.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up
is get caffeine.
[x] I can go to the store without
getting something I don't need.
[ ] I understand political jokes the
first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.
Total: 6

[] I have realized that the weather
forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place
of
employment.
[ ] I have been to a tupperware party.
[ x] I have realized that no one will
take you seriously unless you are over
the age of 25 and have a job.
[x] I have more bills than I can pay.
[ ] All my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all
night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[x] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a
while.
[x] I can read a book and actually
finish it.
Total: 6

I'll get married at................... 29 yrs?!?

Mak kao.... lama nah??

Baby Iffah Daaniyah

2007-04-02T11:37:00.000+08:00

Me & Syah visited Nooreen & Baby Iffah Daaniyah yesterday after work.

Iffah is SoOooO cute! Yelah.... baby mane kan yg tak cute. Tapi dekni mcm lion, asik nak serang susu mak die je. Mate die sepet, ikot Daddy die... tapi muke die bulat ikot cam Mummy die..

Here's the Baby Iffah gazing adoringly to her mummy... "Mama lawa lah... Iffah da besar nak jady mcm Mama.."

And these are Iffah's Mak Angkats.. chehhh cam betol jer... wait Iffah u big oready these Aunties bring you to Equinox makan hitea... suke tak? Suke tak? :p

Yeay! Iffah got 4 milk sources now.... *Yum yum*

Amacam.... ade tokoh jady ibu tak?

Ah.... nie pulak Si Boi Mentel. Nooreen's nephew. Very cheeky and mentel.

Iffah: "How do u want me to pose? Lying down? Sitting up? Crawling to Mama?"

EeEeEeeE Iffah berak! Cepatlah Nenek change Iffah nye pampers!!

Haiz... isn't she so adorable?

*Arin wonders when she'll get her own*

Hmmm.....

2007-04-01T13:46:00.000+08:00

Now U See It.....

Now u Don't!

Hehe...

Tak abis2 ngan donut aku...

*Yummy* sexy rings

2007-04-01T10:41:00.000+08:00

My lovely "cina-ic" GFs and I lepak-ed @ town last Friday. Actually thought of queueing for donut, but tak jady cuz it was raining pretty heavily around Bkt Gombak. It was a simple and suttle, yet satisfying evening.

BF was still mad at me for not telling me about Thursday's outing wif da beruangs. Nvm-lah. Kalao tk bilang pon bukannye bley mati.Yesterday also had an argument wif him. Ti'll now we're not talking. Arin's motto for da day: "Biar perigi cari timba, jgn timba cari perigi." (Betol ke aku nye sequence nie?) Tak kol bukannye bley mati pon. Stakat berperang dgn keegoan je. Sape nak pi layan. Dah lah... malas nak crite pasal hal si Boncit tuh.

Asalkan aku bahagia dgn Chics2 mentel aku sudah. Betol tak? :p

Without further ado, let me introduce u to da Star Karatz with lots of Attitude :p

Arin.... sweet and simple with her slack nak mampos outfit.

and the sexy sister pose..

Arin again with her sexy nak mampos cleavage showing GF.

Oficially the "One Hour Bookworm"

Nooreen: "Lawa eh background die?"

Arin: "Tak nampak apape pon."

Part ni da ngantok giler. Aku nie famous tol. Baring pon ade org nak amik gambar.

Although we are *stars*, we still look good even though wif oily faces...

Missy Eqa wif her "EVIL" kening.... u GO girl haha....

The star karatz also like to find Mr Wally... remember this game Syah?

K dah penat nak storytelling...

Still wondering why that Boncit still haven't call...

Haiyah... feel so restless @ work man. Shit him.

Kak Ayu's Bdae @ Straits Cafe

2007-03-30T11:06:00.000+08:00

"Eh, nak pegy mane nie?"

Haha... the sight of Kak Ayu's stunned face as we walked into Straits Cafe @ Rendevous Hotel was really satisfying and memorable. She mati2 tot that we were going to treat her to a meal @ LJS. Kan dah kene prank! And she didn't even realize it until Maya registered her reservation with the host @ Straits Cafe.

Dress code for the evening: Black.

Yelah.... byk korang nye black. Skali sume dtg pakai printed blouses. Da rase mcm kat 70's nye fashion show plak. And nie tiga2 beruang pakai heels plak. Dah aku rase mcm Ms Shorty pada mlm yg berbahagia itu.

Aniwaes, aside from celebrating Kak Ayu's 25th bdae, we also got free "Peeling off prawn shell and crab" sessions from Chip Beruang and cuci mata with a cute underaged waiter named Arif. Btw guys, we forgot to fill in the comments card. Looks like he won't be calling u, Maya.

Aniwaes here's the Birthday Girl!

Kak Ayu cutting her Choc Praline cake.

"Happie Bdae to eeyewww~

U r born in da ZoOoO~
Happie Bdae to Kak Ayu~
Jgn senyum mcm lembuuuuuuuuu~
MoOoOoooo~"

uS njoying the array of deserts @ the buffet line.. Nie Maya.. Cicah Marshmallow ngan Choc lyke Makan ikan cencaru ngan kicap.. yum yum :p

And this is my dessert...

Showin' sOMe LoOOVVee~

AAaAAhhh... amik ko telan tu Salmon beruang. Tell me, does it taste like heaven? Hehehe :p

Still cutting da cake?!

Maya: C'mon, c'mon..... who's head is bigger. Me or Ayu? Muahhahahaha :p

Me n Syah: Definitely not our heads...

But........ we got a big bear hug! Hehe...

Now, let's compare who's stomach looks 2 mths pregnant....
Hmmm... very hard to tell from this pic...

Is it Arin?

No..... it must be Syah! Muahahaha :p

All thanks to.......

And the V.I.P.S (Note: Very Insane PersonS) who made it happen!

Loves it!

Girlfriends Outing...

2007-03-26T23:21:00.000+08:00

Went out wif my GFs last Friday...

Too many pics, too little time to upload...

Hot Topics includes:

Eqa's Cekak Pingang style..

Nooreen's Panda Black & White Rolling jatuh tangga

&

Arin's "Semua gambar ada muka kao"

Judy's Last Day

2007-03-26T13:40:00.000+08:00

I had a chance to exercise my creativity yesterday @ work & prove that I've already had a kickstart to my future hobbies (See 'About me' on the Right). I custom-designed my own storage box to put in all my munchies! It took me about 3 hrs to complete it.. so here's how it looks...

The top cover...

Side view with Kak Ayu's feveret bag brand...

The part thats still not completed cuz I ran out of magazines..

And yesterday was also Judy's last day @ work. So sad to see her go but I hope she finds a better job outside...

Syah... are u sure Judy and I look like sisters?... Hehe

Judy with Janelle (top) and Connie (bottom) the SENIOR CITIZENS... :p

4 Chinese ladies... muahaha... Mcm betol jer :p

And this pic is for remembrance to Judy of how she started off... answering voicemail @ Last Station!

2007-03-25T10:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's morning started out great. Know why? Cuz me & Syah were the earliest ones @ work! We bought breakfast from Subway, snap pics with our future sleek & hot racing babies.....

Then we went to Suntec Convention Centre after work @ 7pm... walked around again like crazy beruangs.... to the Branded Shoe Sale! I bought a pair of Renoma shoes @ only $10! Wow-ness! Hehe... then proceeded to Watsons sale but nothing much to see, so went into another Branded clothing exhibition. This time, we bought t-shirts @$5-$6 each. Satisfied, we went straight to NATAS travel fair but were dissapointed when we saw the $3 admission price. So... apelagy we were so hungry after walking & shopping we had dinner @ PastaMania!

I had the sexy, smooth and Creamy Chicken Pasta!

While Syah had the Beef Boulleignaise...

Who's Sexier? Chicken or Beef? :p

Then we sneek-peaked into Bar & Billiard room @ Raffles Hotel & took a quick pose @ the Fountain!

And thats how I spent my Sat evening. Wif my talkative curly-hair bear. Hehe :p

To Ms Chacha, Ms Rabbit-same-nose-as-me and Ms "Killer" Looks, pls upload our Friday outing pics a.s.a.p. Love eeeeyewwsss.....

2007-03-22T14:48:00.000+08:00

Da cute guy was there again at BBDC yesterday!

Hahaha... We took the same prac session, diff is he's taking Class 2 & he passed his evaluation but I failed again :( I guess I'm not yet ready to take the Traffic Police Test. My weaknesses would be at the S-course & Slalom. I'm scared of falling thats y go slow & steady. Another thing is that I dun noe what happened but I fell from the Narrow Plank, so got 1 immediate failure. Too bad lah... I tink I must go for more self-practise to gather my confidence altogether and then be ready for TP in April, hopefully.

Aniwaes, the cute guy's name is Fairos. Tall and thin... and abit klakar selenge wic I lyke cuz he looks adorable when he looks surprised. Like when he topped up an additional $30 into his BBDC account instead of opting for other amounts option. And he got like $28.00 balance in his account after deducting for RC session. Slenger.

And.. he's the same age as me, only 5 months older. Then when I was walking towards home, he horned from his bike again on the road and waved bye bye to me. Hehehe.... :p

Dun get me wrong. At the end of the day, I still love my BF and Fairos... well let's say he'll be a good bike companion for me :) Coz he's a very nice guy. Remember uh... Fren means Fren. But if want to be flirtatious also can lah hahahaha :p

2007-03-21T16:44:00.000+08:00

To Syah....

Nie Beruang mcm ko Kepala Besar mentang2 matair aku admire ko.. HmmpPhH! (See previous entry comments PLz)

And today I queued for 2 hours for my favourite Double Chocs! Here's a sneak peek of those simply sinful seductions and of course... posed by the sexy donut lover... hehehhe :p

Shining with perfection & fresh from the oven... *yum yum* So how Dzal... wanna queue anot? Hehe ;p

2007-03-20T21:24:00.000+08:00

In my all time downest moments, sum1 finally brought a smile to my face.

And I can't stop thinking about my new found friend.

He's cute, really. And looking hot riding on his Supa4 white bike.

And of all the sweetest and almost cheeziest moment was when...

He wished me gdluck for Wed's prac.

Hehehe :p SSsssHHhh... Dun tell Mike ok?

2007-03-17T23:37:00.001+08:00

How would you feel if ur now "SO-Called" Best Friend called u a Bitch??

I've been tolerating with ur darn attitude PATIENTLY for 8 yrs but today, u've totally crossed that line.

Fuck Off Bitch.

What were u thinking when u msged me that??

You could've just told me u've made plans wif ur fren.

Just say it to me STRAIGHT.

Don't need to "tarik tali" wif me.

Dun need to accuse me of being a LIAR.

Dun need to say that I've been giving u bullshit all these while.

Cuz today, U R the one who's giving me bullshit.

U R the one who's being a BITCH.

U R the one....

Who's pulling in other excuses cuz u noe u're in the wrong.

And what's the WHOLE POINT of accusing me of being a liar?

U dun have any directions in ur statements. U have no POINTS to fight against me.

The truth is, ur SO weak inside.

U're trying to play with words to strengthen ur weakness.

Does calling me a BITCH make u feel any better?

Does calling me a BITCH make u strong?

Make u feel like you've finally "WON" something over me?

If so, why didn't u pick up the phone when I called you?

Why did u back away and ignored me when I wanted to confront you?

I guess you're too AFRAID Yas.

U're using words as ur shield.

Words that are meant for u, BITCH.

2007-03-16T11:03:00.000+08:00

I'm Back!
Been teman-ning my BF @ Changi Hospital for the past 2 days...
He undergone an operation last Wed to insert a piece of metal tied to his right palm on Wed..
He's gonna be discharged at 2pm today..
Hopefully he'll get a good rest at home..
So aniwaes, I didn't pass my evaluation on Wed.. had booked for yesterday's slot.. but had to cancel cuz BF had to stay another night in hospital..
I didn't even went for lab yesterday
I was late..
And confused about events for the day.
I'll just leave it at that.

2007-03-13T08:38:00.000+08:00

I passed my Prac 7.01 yesterday! So happy lah... after this left with evaluation, which I'm going tomoro, and then if pass... can book for TP either 26 March or 2nd April! Soo exciting..! I passed also thanks to Joana's lucky Ovalitines. So sweet of her for remembering that I have prac today. And for giving me good luck! She's so lucky.. she passed her evaluation and now booked for her TP on 2nd April oready... Lincah betol...

Aniwaes... updates for weekends.
Sat when to Bugis with Syah and we bought new Clothings! Then I bought a new sandal $9.90 only. Its Brown with little polka dots. Very nice.
Then we see This Fashion got 30% member discount so I bought 2 baju, $30 only. Syah's baju very nice got a hint of purple here and there... but the basic for the baju is grey colour. And both our baju have those satin feel to it. Makes us feel expensive. Haha :p Betol tak Beruang?
Then balik time we ate @ LJS. Had the new seafood combo. All the food looks yellow. The shrimp is very nice but the calamari rings looks hard and tastes hard.
I didn't finish my fish. So kenyang oready...
But the milo was extremely nice.
Then in the MRT, lucky for us cuz there were seats. Dah duduk mcm mak nenek bistu rase nak tertido plak... so penat after walking so much. And oh... forgot to mention. We found another donut shop called SummerHouse Donuts @ Berlington Square. But it was CLOSED by the time we reached there. HAMPA : (

On Sunday, werk was dead boring cuz my beruangs were not there. Haiz... takde minah2 kecoh nie plak.

So after that, met up with Eqa & Nooreen @ Bugis.
Dropped by TOPMAN to buy Fir's gift which is a gift card with value inside.
Then grabbed a cab and headed to Fir's party @ East Coast Chalet.
Initially we felt awkward cuz there were so many Fir's bike frens outside the chalet.
Then Nasha came and ask us to sit down.
She almost broke down & cry cuz Fir had to be warded due to leg infection which caused his right leg to swell and turned red.
But then, Wan talked to the doc about the surprise party and allowed Fir to be discharged for an hour.
The singing of the birthday song was followed by the smearing of chocolate cake on Fir's face.
Then Fir came forward and thanked us for coming and we took pics with him... which will be up as soon as Nooreen forwards it to me...

So yesterday... I finished up the bio assignment & went for Prac's last session.
Terserempak with my lovely JC frens Raihana & Hafiza...
Makan for while @ Air Pasang, then walked all the way to BBDC.
After prac, had some good laughs and storytelling session with Syah & Kobi @ Alif.
I tell u guys... don't ever be rude to the waiters or servers..
cuz u guys would get "payment" 10 times ur crudeness in the form of dirty acts in ur meals.
Hehe... so beware.

2007-03-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

My fever is finally down! Hehe :p so Happy...

N yesterday's meet up wif BF was really fantastic!

His mum never fails to feed me everytime I come to his house..

And yesterday she cooked for me western style... wic was my favourite!

Got nuggets... fries... hotdogs... yummy2 all fresh from the cooking pan

She fried so many and ask me to eat everything...

Wants me to grow fat cuz she says I'm skinny...

Heee then BF said to his mum...

"Die kurus takpe, biar Salleh gemok."

After downing everything wif 100plus,

We watched Kuntilanak @ his bedroom together wif his mum...

Then BF started scaring me with Kuntilanak's mantera...

Then after the show, BF's mum already prepared dinner for us..

Got curry daging, bread, got fried eggs with kicap...

His mum cooked the eggs just like how I wanted it to be.

Tastes like Heaven hehe :p

Then after that we went out..

he wore a green shirt that matched mine...

We walked & he hold my hands all the way,

And @ one point, he hugged me to sleep...

It feels so good to have his old self back...

To have his loving, caring self like those times back in early 2006...

Very2 sick

2007-03-08T13:19:00.001+08:00

Despite having a high fever of almost 38.5 degrees,
I managed to pass my Prac 6 yesterday.
Luckily I do not need to repeat until 4 times like one guy had to..
I'm still not feeling well right now...
My mum said I cough like a dog. *Shit*
My body is in a very bad condition...
Usually, most to most I'd be sick for only 2 days..
But this has been 5 days..
Ms Beruang... kao betul pembawak penyakit...
Nasib baik aku tady tak pengsan time bwk motor..
Kalao pengsan, dah jady satu masalah plak..
Kene bwk gi hospital.. Dad tau i take lesen motor... blah blah
Aniwaes, I booked for Prac 7 this fri, cuz later going to BFs house.
If never go, can take tonight's night slots..
I really wanna complete this a.s.a.p so that I can move on to car prac wic would take a much longer time to complete...
I hope BFs mum dun keep feeding me cuz my throat hurts badly...
U noe Beruangs... I can only eat porridge and aniting that doesn't need to be chewed..
I feel like a baby!
Haiz...
I totally hate this...

2007-03-07T14:13:00.001+08:00

This is one of my favourite songs.
Camar yg Pulang By Siti Nurhaliza.

To: Chip Beruang

2007-03-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

Heard that someone cried @ work.
I was quite surprised to hear the story from my sidekick.
So how now Chip Beruang?
We got an addition to the Bear family izit?

Is he confused?

2007-03-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

Juz hanged up the phone wif BF.
I think the situation wif my parents is somehow getting into his head, but he's not admitting it.
I can feel it.
Girls feels these things coming. Its a thing called vibe.
And when the vibe's not good, we all get tensioned up and suspects negative things would happen before it even happens. And I certainly can feel my vibe blinking loud and clear up in my head. I dun feel good.
He's not confident about us. Me being Paranoid? Mebe. How can one not feel paranoid being in my situation? My parents does not allow us to be together. If I was in my BF's position, I sure would feel less confident to be in the relationship any longer.
Sure, there's hope that the situation will change in the future.
But hopes doesn't always get fulfilled.
And I think he's waiting for the right time to back off.
Or mebe, waiting for me to let him go.
I'm not sure... seriously. But the vibe's still not good.
He can keep denying all he wants.
He can say many I love yous to me.
But I'll still stand true to my vibe...
And be prepared for anything that might happen unexpectedly in the future.
But... the truth is, I'm still not prepared to let him go..
In case I need to.
And if I do, it's not cuz I listened to my parents advice...
It's because I sacrificed my own happiness to make them happy.

2007-03-05T23:23:00.000+08:00

Sad news.. I failed Prac 6.

All of them in my group failed, even the guy who came back for the 3rd time. Surprisingly, all of them in the other group under different instructors, passed. Just not my day today. Could have passed Sector 2, but the instructor in my opinion, was very "berat sebelah". I asked him, how come he didn't chop for my pedestrian crossing. He just said... if I passed Sector 2, then he can chop both cuz it comes together, like in a package. But what I dun understand... how come one of the guys gets a chop for his pedestrian crossing, but also fails Sector 2? To my understanding, I thought the instructor said I have to pass both tests in Sector 2 in order to get both tests chopped. But the way he explained it to me, its like.... he sounds very biased and chauvinistic . He didn't even explained to me what was my mistake at the pedestrian crossing. He didn't try to make me understand why I didn't get a chop for that. I shall not name the instructor for confidentiality's sake. But let's just say he's been working in BBDC for 7 yrs. If you come across him.... slamatlah...

I've booked for this wednesday. Hopefully he's not in-charge of my group again. Joana also only passed Sector 1.. and I think she was assigned to the same instructor as me.

I'm just grateful that even though I failed, BF still encourages me to book for the next prac and hopes I do well. Everyone, pray for my safety and skills on the road k? Love u guys *muax*

Sick

2007-03-05T12:34:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Syah's virus, I've got a dreadful sore throat for 2 days now...

I feel so terrible. BF said my voice very kasar. And it's all your fault, Ms Beruang.

And worst still.. tonight I've got road training. Dunno can make it anot cuz I feel quite drowsy.

I had a very wierd dream today though...

In my dream, I was late for my attachment @ Pasir Ris.

Then in the midst of rushing to work with my cuzen,

I forgot to wear my bra... Hehe...

Then my dad fetched under my block and he was giving me a wierd look.

My cuzen too.

Then I realized... I was half naked!

Immediately my body glowed red and I covered my boobs with my hands.

Then @ Tampines Interchange, my dad dropped me far away from the shopping centre

So my cuzen and I had to run all the way to the shopping centre with half of my hand on my boobs.

I tell ya... it was so damn embarrasing..

Then as I was running around like a frantic person to a bra section,

my mum said.. "Ani, dah kol rape nie nak gi skolah?"...

Shit.

Hope the dream will continue tonight.

Heh.

Unusual Sighting

2007-03-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

Who says Aladin only travels by magic carpet? Hehe ;p

Photo courtesy of my Beruang Sidekick, Syah.

Beruangs night out!

2007-03-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

Today's post shall be short n sweet...

Had Genes test @ school @ 5pm juz now,
Then headed to town wif Syah...
Ate @ Cahaya...Ate our favourite Sotong Char Kway!
Then looked around for charm necklaces & shoes but all mahal2...
Then went to Tangs, bought our bags! So cheap & chic! Cheyyy... :)
Then walked ard like crazy beruangs...
Spotted an abundance of inter-racial relationships,
Wished we were like them...
Talked about going out dating wif Malay guys @ Coffeeshops...
Spotted some good ol' frens along the way,
OooOOgling @ choc & cheese cakes in the display windows,
Talked about our angan2 to hang out with the Equinox gang @ The Balcony...
Made some people smile with our spontaneous kwang kwang kwangs... :p
Getting seriously high from consuming orange juice...
Spotted a girl with a STUPID tee...
And getting free entertainment from a cute dancing young kid...

And to my beruang sidekick...
U broke our promise.
We're supposed to go to House of Japan, remember?
Heh. :p

Feeling down

2007-03-02T16:13:00.000+08:00

I feel like a mixed-up cocktail ryte now...

I dunno how to describe this situation of mine, but I'll try...

Mum was angry at me in the morning cuz of wanting to overnyte @ BF's house last night. She said pretty harsh words to me.. but I just kept quiet because if I open up my mouth, I know she won't like what I'll say. And definitely, the words I'm gonna say, r not nice. Then I called up BF.. and we chatted for awhile. And as emotional as ladies are... I started pouring out to him wats been happening lately...

Both my parents now doesn't like the fact that I'm in a r/s with him. I tot my mum was OK about it.. I mean during Hari Raya when BF visited our house, mum didn't scold him or aniting. In fact, she chatted with him throughout the whole session. There wasn't any sign of disapprovement. But then..... on that same night, she told my dad that BF visited our house and that I went out wif BF on his bike to jalan rayer with his frens. My dad obviously became SO outraged! He said to me that he doesn't like me to be with my own cuzen or relatives. It means that he dissapproves of our r/s just because we r relatives. Die tak merestui perhubungan kita... U noe... I was so sad when he said that. And mum... I tot she could back me up... but turns out... she also can't decide who to side with. But from her reactions, I could tell... she will go with whatever dad says. So from then onwards... she keeps reminding me each and every time that dad doesn't want to c me wif him anymore. If he does, he wants to go to BFs house and confront BF and his parents. I was like.... WTF?!?

And today morning... she told me over and over again that I had one yr more to study and asked me to fulfill Dad's wishes of being able to see me succeed and hold that damn certificate with that damn blue cloak around me as I stand on that damn blardy stage during graduation. I noe that if she didn't shut up any sooner, I would blast off at her. But... I just kept quiet and be patient. And she did shut up eventually. I wanted to retort back at her.... SHE wants ME to fulfill DADS wishes?? Hello... since when did dad EVER in his whole damn blardy life EVER fulfilled my wishes?? EVER made me feel happy without interfering into my own personal space, my personal damn blardy life?? Since when?? Since when did dad EVER welcomed any guys or any friends for that matter with big arms wide open and a smile upon his old face?? NEVER! ok mum... NEVER! And u guys might say... hey, he's ur dad.. and he sacrificed working day and night to feed u... what's up with being so quantifiable with happiness and blah blah blah...? Many people doesn't know that I didn't grow up with my dad. My mum was the one who fed me. She worked hard to feed me and send my bros for child care. And she paid all those with her own hard work and money. Dad? Well... let's say he was pretty occupied with his 1st wife. Romancing day and night like rabbits. If dad weren't to pop into my life 12 yrs ago, Mum would still be working now and would still be able to feed me and my bros without his help. Sorry to say this... but he is an unideal father. Yes, he may score As in working and getting money to feed us now... but in terms of providing happiness and tender loving care to the family, he's a failure. All he thinks of me is that I need to study, study, study and listen to whatever he says. And his advices aren't all good. They may be according to religious rules, but not practical enough to be incorporated into today's generation context.

Yes, I do know that religiously the Quran states that girls cannot mingle with guys before marriage cuz its considered haram. In Malaysia, u can be caught for close proximity in what they call ' tangkap khalwat' .. and be forced to enter into marriage. But hey... it's all up to the individuals. Even dad can't resist 'being together' with his 1st wife even before marriage. It's like so common nowadays seeing teenagers oogling up each other's underwears and get pregnant b4 marriage. But... I'm not to that extreme. I dun c why the P-units should include religion and blah blah into our conversation. Religion provides a set of rules you have to follow. And I dun think even the most religious of people would follow each and every rules there is every single second of the day. I dun think HE follows it either. What wif talking and sitting and mingling around with Batam gerls @ Geylang's Banquet every other day during lunch break. Diri sendiri dah tak betol, nak advise org. He thinks I don't know his moves... but I've got my own reporters also.

And mum... haiz I can't even tell her ANYTHING! She doesn't know what to think! She doesn't have her own stand at all! Even BF thinks so. Know why? Cuz when I'm going out with BF, I tell her about it but she just asks me to be careful to ensure that we dun mit up wif Dad on the way back home.. or be careful when he's riding the bike. But she didn't even try to like prevent me from going to meet him. Then the next moment.... like just now, she accused me of lying to her about my relationship with BF lah... and insisting to listen to my dad's advice lah... and the most painful is that she said usually "Perigi cari timba... nie timba cari perigi". I was damn sad lah... cuz she's so ignorant about my relationship with him, and she accuses me of all sorts of things. Bf's mum was the one who really insisted to have me stay overnyte at her house. I was reluctant at 1st but was OK with it, provided that mum approves. Then now... haiz.. I dun even noe how to say anymore. At one moment, she says that I'm big enough already.. and at the next, she tries to control my life by reminding me of my dad's threats to me...

And BF... even before losing him, I already feel like I'm losing him already. And the feeling hurts so bad. It's not like I'll die if I'm not together with him anymore... I'll still live.. but the thing is that it wouldn't feel the same anymore. This guy. He opens up my eyes alot... he gives me many advices that really wakes me up, makes me reflect on what I've done in my past... makes me realize how my parents are treating me. And most of what he says are actually true. When I think about it.. sit and reflect upon what he's said... its actually quite true...

He even said that... one day I'll be with someone... but that someone would not be him. He can feel it. Because of how my parents are reacting towards our relationship now... he feels like... in the future we can't be together. But.. I'm willing to hold on, and he is too... Cuz he says that Love's like an ambition. It takes years to build on upon the strength of that love.

And after typing all these... I still feel like a mixed-up cocktail.

Sorry guys to have revealed so much personal events here.

It's the only way.

Cuz Mum & Dad won't listen.

And cuz friends have their own problems too....

BF kena xcident

2007-03-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

BF kena xcident.

I juz came back from his house. His right palm was fractured & had to be cemented.
I think the doc is gonna insert like a piece of metal into his palm once its healed abit.
Was given 2 weeks MC... and I hope he stays @ home & rest. N I mean a good rest... not emerging after 2 weeks of MC & having a Winnie the Pooh tummy. Tats like... larger than life. Heh.

Aniwaes, I pitied his condition coz no work= no $$. But @ the same time, I'm equally frustrated cuz he didn't told me he was involved in an xcident. Eqa had to pass the news to me cuz she had an attachment @ Changi Hospital & happened to push my BF sitting in a wheelchair. If it hadn't been for her, I wouldn't have known ti'll now cuz my BF is soOoOO secretive about everything. Some people say it's good that he doesn't wanna tell cuz it means he doesn't want to make me worry. But hey... think about it.. I'm his cuzen AND his GF. It's not like I just knew him or someting. We've been together for over a yr now. So, I don't c the idea of keeping everything to himself. What if his condition was more worse than having a palm fracture? Urrrghh.. I don't even wanna go thinkin' way beyond that... Lucky for him he was riding his office's bike. I'm sure he'll be pulling his hair off if he was riding his own bike just now...

Many of his friends came over to visit him... and most of them I didn't know & haven't met. Had to help his mum make drinks for them, serve food... blah blah.. the usual procedures lah. Then while BF layan all his frens in his room, his mum asked me to watch movies with her.. She's so sweet lah... dunno wat else to describe.. summore ask me to stay overnyte to look after my BF. Muahaha... and we tok and tok and tok and watch movies and eat the foods bought by BF's frens. Like Hari Raya gathering... Hehe... Too bad lah... my mum not sporting... asked for her permission, and she keeps reminding me that Daddy will blast off if he knew about it. C'mon lah.. if mum doesn't tell Dad aniting, he won't know what. Small issues like this also kenot bohong sunat. It's not like I'm gonna overnyte wif BF alone in a deep dark isolated forest where he's gonna attack me @ any time. His parents & sister is there what... I think Mum needs to take up an "Understanding Daughter's Needs" module.

Klah.. Arin needs to sleep.
Gdnyte my dear online diary.
May u rest in pieces. Heh ;p

Happy 1st March!

2007-03-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

Ok... finally completed the Contracts Admin assignment. E-mailed Anh bout 5 mins ago.. hope she finishes it by this Sat, or else John will keep calling me again. Hehe...

I forgot to mention that on the way home in bus 188 juz now, I saw my neighbour Junaide with his new girlfren. She lives in Bukit Gombak area also. Was surprised to see him in the bus cuz usually he rides a bike. I guess he must be waiting for the ryte tyme to buy his vespa. His GF looks nice and pretty. Luckily not like some ladies who would get so upset if their guy talks with another girl. If my BF talks to another girl in more than an affectionate way than he talks to me... I'll definitely do something about it.... Muahhahahaha besok siap lah ko aku kerjakan atas katil haha.. :p *OoOoOOpPpzZz* hehe Juz Kidding... Mebe kasi die dua tiga kali smackdown ngan bantal kat kepala die biarkan die 'wake up' sikit... pastu baru kerjakan die muahahha... (Hopefully he does not find out bout this blog.. If not mesti kene nye ngan die hehe..)

Klah i crave for my sleep now.. If not I'll think about super senseless thoughts @ the wee hours of 1st March. K dada~ Gdnyte.. sleep tyte.. Dun fart, U retard! Hehe ;p

PDL registered

2007-02-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

Im back!!

I registered for my PDL today.. the queue was SoOoO long like the Donut queue @ Raffles City.

I queued for like more than an hour, and there was still a very2 long queue behind me. Pity them all.. somemore got 1 foreigner make hell lot of noise & complainin' on why he can't convert his foreign license to S'pore. SoOoO Damn irritating lah. Thanks to His "Wonderful" performance... the line was held up for like 15 mins. A**hole!

Aniwaes, I'm going for road training this coming Monday. Hopefully everything turns out fine and I dun get rundown by a car *OoPS* .... No Cancel that.

Oh, & btw.. I can't show my PDL here.. if not people will know my address!

Heh. Ti'll tomoro. Gotta complete my assignments now. Chiao!

Screammm!

2007-02-27T19:26:00.000+08:00

Everyone.....

SCREAMMMM!!!!

heHEHehheh.....

I passed my evaluation!!

With 12 demerit points!

I'm SOoOoO excited to go on the road for my next prac...

But must apply for PDL 1st tomoro morning!

Haha... ok wanna go take a shower now :p

Oh & btw, i made friends again with another gerl, Shikin. She's 23 yrs old but she looks much much younger.. like 18 or something. She didn't make it.. had 18 demerit points & 1 immediate failure I think.. but aniwaes, we made plans to meet up in the future & hopefully she pass her evaluation a.s.a.p so that we can ride on the road together.

Lookin' forward to makin' more girlfriends in the future... ToOoODleSsS~

And oh .. oh b4 I forgot.. I saw one of the Actors from the Malay show on Suria Danielle @ BBDC. I dun noe his name but he's the one with long hair but always tied up & wears big shades & has all these messy beard thing going around his face. Like a Beruang. Hehe.

Ok now I can end.

Pounding hard inside

2007-02-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

Dab Dub. Dab Dub. Dab Dub.

That's how I feel ryte now.

Bike prac's in 3 hrs tyme.

And I'm still not prepared.

Should I cancel the training 2dae?

Hmmmm.....

To: Chip Beruang

2007-02-27T03:23:00.000+08:00

Maya~~~
We spotted a live Beruang @ Alif yesterday!
Siap wearing shades @ 12am somemore!
Hahaha... too bad the pic is wif Syah.

Latest Update

2007-02-26T18:29:00.000+08:00

Joana passed her 5.02 bike prac!

Congrats babe!

And tomoro....

It's my turn

*Eeeepppsss*

Weekend break... Not.

2007-02-26T16:32:00.000+08:00

I've yet to post up the pictures for the previous entry. My laptop @ home lags, can't even post up entries. Trying to find out the problem, but can't seem to find the source.. so my last resort : School comp lab. Hehe. Quoting Nini, "We pay miscellaneous fees what. So must use school property to the fullest."

Aniwaes.. updates for the weekends? Slogging @ work from 9am to 7pm as usual. I'm still considering of changing my part-time job cuz I'm seriously being underpaid. Imagine $5.50/hr. And for 9 hours per day... that adds to about $49.50 only... times 2 days.. only $99! $99 for one whole week! Haha... how to pay for my bike prac ley? Plus hp bills, transportation fees & makan money... I'm going 'kayap' soon. Sooner than I think, I'd say.

I'm rethinking of getting a job.. mebe part-time only on weekends. Probably in retail so that can practise abit of my upselling skills (like I have one) hehe.. and with a rate of $10/hr. The only job in the hotel that offers that is the New Asia Bar bouncer! At this point, I wish I was a guy. So that I have a wider jobscope. I've thot of going into beauty retail... but I've no idea about beauty products at all. Haiz.... if got interview @ GUESS, I'll sure go for that. So can get discount!

Where else to get higher part-time jobs? Tuition lah! $15-$25/hr. Depending on wic level. Sec skool is much higher. That time when I was in JC, my parents forked out a $50/hr session tuition for my AO level maths with this 4th yr NUS student named Faizal. He teaches me pretty good, I'd say cuz from never passing maths, I got a B3 during A levels... which was quite surprising, considering the fact that I only had tuition with him one month before my A levels.

Ok ok.. back the weekends topic..

Right after work on Sat, I went to Equinox & took orders for donuts from Lyly, Farisha, Phillo, Kiran & Glory. The original plan was to buy 36 donuts and most of it consisting of our favourite Double Choc but I ended up buying only 24 pieces and with 3 flavours namely the Peanut Dark Choc, Orange White Choc & Hazelnut Choc coz they only had these left. That's what you get if you start queueing @ 8.30pm. And of all the 24 pieces, I only had 2 cuz Lyly ordered 12 pieces! Biar die makan byk2 nanti jady boncit like me. Hahaha...

So while separating the donuts @ Introbar, Haider the NAB exec suddenly approached me with an ond Chinese guy & we talked about Donuts. I didn't know who the hell he was... haha... but must be some rich guy lah. Talk & talk but never give Ang Pow hehe... :p Then after that, I went up to Equinox & passed the donuts to them & went straight home cuz I was damn tired man.

On Sunday, there were less calls & I was bored as usual. So I decided to surf the net & find colouring pages to pass the time. Had fun colouring Winx fairies with Judy. But after a while, it got pretty boring also. There were only 12 colours.. and I used wax crayons, so there wasn't really much texture that I can use to enhance the shading of the picture. Right after work, Yana & Yasmin called me up to meet @ Shaw Towers for dinner but I had other original plans actually... which is to go Lucky Plaza & buy my fav Lanvin miniature perfume. Then, I went to Tangs to check out the Island Shop there to see if they also got 90% off sales like in Raffles City, but the highest was only 50% off & the clothes were not really nice. Was looking @ Studio shoes, then I saw these pair of wedges with floral design & peep toes which I've been looking for, for so long. I bought it for only $29.90. This would add up to my collection of already many2 shoes @ home which I seldom wear. Mum always like to say that I'm like Amelda Markos cuz she also owns hundreds pairs of shoes. The difference is that she's rich, I'm not. And mum always insists that I give her some of my shoes cuz I've got so many which I seldom wear. And I'd say, "Takbley. Nanti kotor." Hehe.. Sorry mummy but your fancy shoes era has long ended. Its my turn now.

Gonna dance wif my shoes now.. Toodlesss~~~

2007-02-24T09:52:00.000+08:00

After 2 days of not updating, here I am again currently @ work while attending to incoming reservation calls.

Continuing from thursday... I met Yana @ Al-Majlis again, had mixed sausages with fries for dinner and then waited again for the arrival of Yasmin to join us. We sat on the 2nd level in an air-conditioned room and where all the furnitures & fittings resembles the Middle Eastern style. The place is like a 2nd home coz the cushions are very comfy... I almost fell asleep on the cushions as I listened to Yana's fav song by Indonesian band Gigi playing in the background... I think I'm gonna convert my bedroom interior into something like that when I got the money hehe.. Well, aniwaes... that is but a reality. We left the place @ 8.30pm cuz all of us were pretty shagged.

Updates for yesterday... I woke up pretty early in the morning to the sound of PCD'S Buttons from my S.E. hp. Had bike prac evaluation @ 8am-9.40am. I failed.. haha after not going for prac for 7 months.. guess its not a surprise at all.. But when I told my BF.. he was like.."Wat? 28 points? So many??" Hehe... yeah I'm really a bad rider. Turn left, bike wobble. Turn right, bike wobble. Go up slope, bike engine stall. Haha... but hey gimme a break. It's been so long since I went for prac ok. My hopes are still lingering, so that's a good sign. But i gauge myself to be slightly below average, so I think I'll probably have to go for 2 or more evaluations before I'll pass and go through road training.

The best news for yesterday was that I passed my basic theory evaluation for my car license. So my basic theory test would be in 2 weeks' time... I can't wait! And I've completed all my final theory lessons, so left with Final Theory evaluation to go to also.

I made frens with this gerl, Joana, who also took bike prac wif me and failed also. Hehe. Turns out, she lives @ Bukit Gombak and studies @ NUS in 3rd yr as well. She's a fast learner though.. she just registered in January and she's already @ the same prac as me. 2 months only.. whereas me.. haha I seldom come for training.. and it took me about 7 months to be at prac 5.02.. and I'm still at it. Haiz... I still dunno when I can ride on my XR2 or mebe gilera. C how la... whether I got the budget or not in the months to come.

Besides Joana, I also met up wif a fren of mine, Saiful after not contacting each other for so long. He's still the same old Saiful.. but he's into bikes now, not gerls. And he's planning to buy a scrambler also like me. But he's more into WR. Actually I like WR but abit 'leceh' cuz always have to kick-start the bike but XR2 uses both E-start or kick-start and its abit shorter and comfier that WR. The seating is much more wider and can accomodate to my huge fat butt hehe ;p

After bike prac, I went home to bath cuz wanna go out and take my pay. I think I collected about $200++ but too bad lah can't spend it like I always do cuz hafta pay for my bike and car lessons... haiz... Joana suggested me to concentrate 1st on my bike prac, then if pass, then concentrate on car.. but I dunno la.. I prefer car to bike cuz it's safer. But I still prefer bike for the "thrill".

After pay collection, I thought of heading to National Library to do some research for my dissertation but it was raining outside.. so I decided to queue for donuts again. Bought some for Syah, delivered it to Equinox for her.. and then headed to Bkt Merah to meet my BF. He was quite busy... I pity him sometimes cuz he's always so pre-occupied with his job that he lacks rest time and also time for himself... what to do... he loves his job. At least I think he does, from the amount of effort and time he put into perfecting his work. We spend time with each other ti'll about 2am today. And he still had to go back to his office after that to complete his worker's schedule to be handed this morning.

Gonna njoy the donuts that Syah bought for me just now... *Yum yum*

Research In Progress

2007-02-22T15:20:00.000+08:00

Im in skool now doing some research for my Contract Administration group assignment. Trying to read up and familiarize with all the procurement methods in construction while at the same time trying to answer the questions that John had assigned us. It's tough in Uni, especially trying to interprete the questions that have been assigned cuz most of the time, the questions are based on applications in real life, not only given or stated by the many books provided in the library. Therefore to piece up all the information together is not always an easy task cuz it involves alot of critical & innovative thinking as well as answering straight to the point, providing concrete justifications and recommendations.

In the library, I saw this tall and lanky guy who keeps stealing glances at me.. Hmm.. I wonder who he is. I can't even define his race by looking at his face cuz its a mix of Malay + Indon + Nepalese + Thai. When I came out of the library, I saw him with a group of Malay guys having a discussion, so... mebe he's Malay then. Well aniwaes.. it doesn't matter cuz he's not twice as cute as his fren is. Haha wif a goatee somemore! :p Ok ok. It's not everyday that Arin comes across a cute guy ryte? So spare me, again.

So now I'm in the computer lab trying to do research for another module of mine. Genes. It sounds like a simple 5-letter word, but really its the opposite of everything simple. I'm supposed to complete a 2-page (only) essay on the Controversies regarding the Legal & Ethical Issues surrounding testing & genetic counselling, which is due on 23 March. Still far away... but I KIASU-mah... wanna do research 1st k.. but writing the essay will take a longer time.. although its only 2 pages.

I'm gonna leave u guys wif the Double Helix....

Taken from: http://www.bio.miami.edu/dana/250/doublehelix.jpg

An hour of reserching later....

Urrmm.. on another note, I think I'm gonna do the 1st question Which is Justifying why this century is termed as "The Biotech Century" and what are some of the likely major breaktroughs and how important would their impact be... The research is much more easier and there are many articles to quote examples. Yay!

Be back later! I cancelled plans wif my BF today.. gonna meet Yana @ Al-Majlis hehe :p

Out Wif My Best Buddies!

2007-02-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

Im Back again!!

Had a great time meeting up wif my GFs Yana & Yasmin just now sharing our most intimate problems together..
Started off wif meeting Yana @ Clementi @ 5pm after my attachment balloting session in skool.. then we headed to Raffles City Shopping Centre & bought my fav donuts @ the Donut Factory Shop! Almost an hour of queueing & finally I bought a dozen donuts, 6 for me and 2 each for Yana, Yasmin & Syah. The best recommended donut would always be the Double Chocolate.. and if you ever drop by to buy donuts, one piece of advise :Eat it while its hot. Every bite feels like a taste from Heaven.. *yum yum* To add on.... every bite oozes wif smooth chocolate filling... right ti'll the last bite. Heh.

So aniwaes, me & Yana had dinner at BK, and then joined by Syah who dropped by to fetch her 2 donuts that I've bought for her. She bought another baju from Island Shop & it costs only 9 bux!

Right after our dinner, me & Yana headed to Al-Majlis where she worked to return the nets card. Saw Prabeen, Yasmin's nepalese BF & Faris, Yana's "ex-sort of-BF". Both were quite cute guys.

~This is Preet. He's nepalese. Hehe.~

~And this is Prabeen, Yasmin's BF... also Nepalese~

From Bugis, we met Yasmin @ her workplace @ SATA Jurong East. Watched the last mins of The Dance Floor for awhile & then headed to LJS for another makan session. It was already 9pluz by then and all of us were damn tired already. Yas as usual hasn't completed her 3000-word essay. So before we departed, we had fun cam-whoring all we can. *sNAP*SnaP* Here they are...

~Me & Yas~

~Yana & Me.. Hehe..~

~All of us together~

~Da "HOT" gerls.. muahahah~

Ti'll many2 meet ups besties! Love ya!

Attachment @ One North

2007-02-21T16:27:00.000+08:00

Had the attachment balloting session in with all my coursemates jus now. And guess what... my name was called 2nd last and all the slots that I wanted were already taken up. BCA, KPK, EM services, CPG consultants... haiz.. But luckily the one at Dept of Building have one slot left. So now during my attachment period, I would do something with green vertical elements and climatic mapping at One North, which is just a few MRT stops away from my house. Thank God I didn't get those in the East area or someting...

Gonna meet Yana @ Clementi now. Dada~

"Mamak-land & Beyond"

2007-02-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

I'm back!!

Little India was pretty crowded yesterday! I already felt like I was walking in India or Bangladesh or "Mamak-land" or something. To my right - Indians. To my left - Bangladeshis. At da front - Singaporean Mamaks. At the back - Shah Rukh Han wanabes. By the time reached Mustafa, I swear I've become a mamak as well.. what wif walking around the shops and being blown with Minyak Sapi all around me.

Aniwaes, we went to Mustafa and looked into da windows, feeling like a kid looking at candies. Every single thing could be found there. Being my 1st time, I felt pretty dizzy walking along the aisles with floor-to-ceiling shelfs all crammed up wif shampoos, perfumes, calculators... everything.

For awhile at the perfumes section, I tot I was in a flower shop. There were so many favourite brands... Escada, Anna Sui, Gucci, Ferragamo, Versace, Hugo Boss... u name it. And you can even try on any perfume without anyone approaching & irritating you with their usual "May I help you?" everytime u wanted to spray on their perfumes just like those SASA shops does.

After what seemed like an hour of pushing and squeezing through the aisles, I only settled wif 2 bottles of nail polish. Syah bought a toothbrush and Herbal Essences shampoo. But we were pretty happy to get away from the crowd a.s.a.p cuz I swear I almost wanted to faint if I smelled those minyak sapis again.

Arriving at a South Indian roadside stall, we ordered roti naans with Kimah & Mutton Curry. It was oh-so-deliiiiciiouuuss & satisfying. We even had a handsome (according to Syah. heh. ;p) young man to take and bring our orders. All the tiredness have given way to satisfied and happy stomachs. If our stomachs were located outside our bodies, I swear they'll dance and even do cartwheels on the table. Hehe ;p

So after our "Happy Meal", we headed back to... Farrer Park station this time round cuz Little India station was way too far for our liking. Opposite on the MRT on our way home, we spotted this really tall but botak hansome guy sitting opposite of us. If his body was alot bigger, he would look like Rae, the NAB bouncer. His eyes were like lasers, they're very penetrating. I almost felt myself burning up when he glanced at me. *grinz* Hey.. I dun c handsome guys everyday. Spare me.

Ok enuf bout that Little India trip & manly mans.

Today I was supposed to meet up wif my lovely GFs Nasha, Nooreen & Eqa but they couldn't make it. Called up Yas for a trip to JB but she was also pretty occupied with her 3000-word essay on Public Speaking dued tomoro. We talked about Prabeen, the Nepalese guy she's currently dating. Apparently, his character was not up to her expectation. According to Yas, he was irresponsible & chilidish... often skipping work to meet her when she also had a class to attend. She was kinda frustrated with him. Aniwaes, what she said really opened up my eyes. All this while I've always questioned my BF about his working hours and being scolded by him whenever I asked him to skip work or take leave on certain days to go out. Either he's a responsible guy or he's just a plain workaholic eyy.. Imagine if I stay with him in the future, I'll sleep on the bed alone every night. Haha.. Poor Arin.

So the original plans were all cancelled... then my mum suddenly & surprisingly suggested that we visit my Aunt @ Bedok cuz she just came back from Hajj last month. She has grown a LOT fatter in a yr! Must be those medication pills that she took. I really pitied her condition... what wif her husband not beside her anymore in her sickness cuz he's busy entertaining some woman in Batam.

As usual, my parents would entertain her. And me... well left to entertain my niece of course! This is the 1st time that I'm seeing her cuz most of the time she would live wif her dad in Indonesia. She's such a lively, bubbly and really talkative young girl. Its amazing how she speaks to me in English everytime. Very fluent & intelligent. So here's what we did...

~I drew a princess from "Puss in Boots" book & coloured it for her~

~Karina colouring the princess that I drew for her~

~Karina showing off da 2 princesses~

~Thats my aunt's black bunny. She's a total beauty... & very tame & cuddly~

~Another pic wif Blackie~

~She's quite shy..~

~Snapshot wif my Aunt. She looks ceria today~