Sunday, July 22, 2007

Attention Dear Friends!!

I just LOST my hp :( Sob sob...

Please, please, please forward ur hp numbers to my email:

u0404900@nus.edu.sg

Thanks SooOo MUCH!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Updates for this week! Like... finally! Hehe... Many happenings as usual lah... But I'll just summarize cuz gonna get some sleep, werking @ 9am tomoro.

Monday - Entertained myself with watching videos over and over again. Watched CNTM on YouTube & some Buffy the Vampire Slayer past episodes on TVlinks.com. Then, met him @ Woodlands to return some comic books. Was pissed off with him for arriving an hour late, so I just headed home. No chances, babe.

Tuesday - Had to drag myself to school to complete the Autocad drawing and finally completed my attachment!! Yayyyy-ness!! Then Farhan a.k.a Kenshi, picked me up from school and we went to NUH to visit his grandad. I kinda miss his company cuz it's been 2 months since the last time I met him and he brought for me my fav Peach Tart! Nasib baik ingat my fav food.. Yelah... org tu kan bz ngan org lain kan kan kan tak ingat kite lagy kan.... Aniwaes after that we headed to Central Library to borrow my comics, then to Bugis Topman and he bought himself a men's cardigan which cost $89 bux! I could buy 10 t-shirts with that money sey... Then after that got this girl from Tony & Guy academy asking me whether I wanna have a free haircut next next wk, and I agreed. Just hafta fix the appointment date, that's all.

Then its time for dinner! He treated me to an advance birthday treat @ Al-Majlis. I had my fav Mixed Sausages & he had Beef Wrap! Yummmmiiieeeeeeee~~~~! And we had a long talk there. Talk and relax and chill and talk and talk. Hehe.... Talk about alot of things that concerns the heart :) I'm glad we had that long conversation and Thank You for the Birthday treat. Then after that we headed for some Pool Action @ Bukit Batok. He thrashed me 6-0! Takpe2.... one day u'll get thrashed back. Then we headed to this secret carpark to learn to drive his car. Haha.... gerek dpt drive kreta! I can imagine myself driving a car in the future :) Amacam... are u still scared of my drifting style.. hmmm? We should do that again someday and I'll show u some of my skills.... but dun close ur eyes with ur hands again when I drift k? Jgn takot.. trust me I can drive. Hehehe.... It was a really good experience and I can see that he missed my company too. I'm sorry to hear about ur relationship... There's alot of nice nice fishies in the sea... Grab a net and catch one nice fishie ok? :)

Wednesday - He apologized to me and we went to JB for lunch and movie. We watched Transformers (2nd time for me) and the new Harry Potter. He slept halfway through Harry Potter.. Idiot sey.. Hehe he say so much talking scenes and less action so overall it's quite boring. I think its because he didn't watch the previous episodes thats why he don't understand what's actually going on. Aniwaes, I've been going to JB like almost every week! Bankrupt sey... but glad got financial backup. Hehehe :p

Thursday - We packed our stuffs and headed to the Beach - again! Haha tak abis2 asik nak berendam jer... we were in the sea for like 3 hours! I had hypothermia in the water.. the water's warm but the air's cold. When we're done swimming and after showering, I had a very nasty flu. Glad that there's Chippy's Battered Fish to warm my internal system :)

Friday - Back to werk @ Restaurant Reservations! First day was hectic sey I had like a large stack of notes to update myself with. Had a bit of a panic attack but after lunch, everything turned out just fine. At about 4pm, I had a surprise msg from an old friend, Imran. Haven't met him for the past 2 yrs. He wanted to ask me out for advance dinner treat. We went to Seoul Garden @ Taka to fill our stomachs up. It's been a long time since I went there... "cook" for myself. Hehe..... by the time dinner ended, I was convinced that I'm 3 months pregnant when I looked at my bulging stomach! Terok betol... sumbat all those food in my perot but the Tom Yam chicken was really tempting. After dinner, he sent me home and I had a chance to try out a few rounds on his Gilera. Senang nak bwk bukak throttle jer all the way. At first it seems abit heavy but when I rode it, mcm ringan gitu and very easy to handle. Just trying out different bikes to see which one suits me the most so I can make a good decision later :)

Saturday - Werk again until 7pm and had lunch with him. I wanted to get Peach Tart from Delifrance but was dissapointed to see that the outlet's no longer there at City Hall :( So I bought 2 bananas from the fruit stall, a packet of Tom Yam Seaweed and Fox sweets... my fav. He picked me up after werk & headed to Little India for some Roti Naan cuz I miss eating that So, sooo much! Then we went to our usual lepak place to spend some quality time together :)

Sunday a.k.a Today - Werk again... but guess what? I earned myself Dinner for 2 at Bar & Billiard Room!!! And its worth like $64++ x 2pax = $128++! Haha... gerek kan? And it's all becoz I managed to get 23pax to dine in for BBR's Sunday Brunch! I had to actualli get a min. of 15 pax to dine in, in order to get the free dinner; which is part of an initiative by the restaurant manager to get us reservation agents to upsell their outlet. Looks like I've got an advance birthday present for myself! :)

Aniwaes... that's all the updates I've got for this week. There'll be more updates next week cuz it's my birthday week! 20th July peeps remember that! Sayonara~~~~

Monday, July 9, 2007

Finally... he landed home safely at 11.25pm last Sat :)

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Yes!! 2 More days & finally he'll be back! :) :)

I've missed him too much oready... Arrghhh rinddu bangettt gueee!!

Btw, today team Singapore got into the Finals... hope he didn't fall on his but while flipping...

Hehe... He always remind me of someone very2 dear to me...

That someone that I can NO longer have... That someone I've given my heart & soul to... (But of course my heart & soul has been restored now. Hehe :p )

U noe wad... apart from all the happiness that I feel right now, I noe that one day I'l feel deeply hurt by my own actions. I know both of them will be hurt, especially BF. I noe he'll be dissapointed in me. He has high hopes for our future, but I always doubt that he'll be able to support my future financially or mentally. He wants US to get MARRIED 2 or 3 yrs after I graduate, which is in maybe... 4 yrs time? Me getting married at 26 yrs old eh. Haha... klakar kaper? But 26 is a nice digit ley... its my class index no. during Sec 4 days.

Aniwaes... sometimes eh I feel like me n BF mcm tak serasi gitu ah. Cara pemikiran kite pon lain. I dun realli get along well wif him. But wif the other guy... haha... jgn ckp ah... dah mcm belangkas... takley berpisah skejap pon mesti tercari2... and we can tok about aniting under the sun and stil joke about it. Thats wat I like ah about him. BF's got many good points also. He's a career person, which is good ah. But, soal hati dan perasaan.... die tak Champion.

Haiz... U noe Im really having a very hard time here. When u go out wif other guys then u noe wats realli missing in ur current relationship. For me...its the chemistry, companionship and closeness. The 3 Cs ah kirekan... Nak lepaskan mcm syg... Dah almost one and a half yrs we're together. Furthermore, he realli wants us to get married. Mcm serba salah pulak aku. Nak lepaskan... takot nanti die accuse kite main2kan perasaan die plak. Nie part ade sikit susah ah.

U noe... belom sempat masalah nie selesai... another one more guy came into the picture. Hairul, my ex and also my good friend. We had something going on 5 yrs ago when i was in JC 1ST yr and only 17 yrs old. Our friendship was somewhat like on and off kind. Die suke ilang2 mcm chipsmore. If he knows I'm attached, he'll run away from my life. But then wen Im single, he'll pop back again into my life to try to woo me back again. And yesterday, he confessed his never-ending love for me.... He wants to take care of me. If not, once he passed his TP next wk, he's gonna go dirt riding on his new KTM2 to Malaysia. Giler ah nie budak. Kasi ultimatums plak. Haiz......

My life.... is always full of surprises.

Let's see what's in store for tomoro k? Ryte now... I wanna drown in Didicazli's Dambaan Cinta...

Monday, July 2, 2007

This feelings... its all so wierd..

Why AM I feeling so alone & remorse without his prescence?

I shouldn't feel this way. I'm strong & independant.

I shouldn't be too emotional... Right?

But it's so hard...

Pls come back soon...